A Place In This World ; ♥

龙年快乐,

2012-01-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year. Happy 龙 Year.

Times flies. It's the last day of January today. Tml will be the first day of a new month. And this also means that 2more days till Baby enters NS. Friday... Can't imagine how life's gna be like anyway. Sigh.

Anyway, day 1 of CNY,
Paternal grandma house from afternoon till night then headed to uncle's house nearby.

Day 2 of CNY:
Maternal grandma house @ Pulau Ubin in the afternoon. Left at about 4plus in the evening and had an impromptu meet up w Baby at his place for house-visiting. Okay, quite awkward. Slacked at the place nearby his house and headed to YCK station at 11plus pm. School the next day -_-

CNY Day5:
Met B after my school Movie - We Not Naughty. Changed iphone, 1-for-1 exchange.

CNY Day 6:
Woke up late. Received a wake up call from HZ Mama. Prepared and met B downstairs. He cabbed down. Hehee, save walking time to WJ's house. Reached WJ's place. Slacked awhile and steamboat. Too bad my crab stick wasnt in good condition. Then played 21. Headed down to Constance's place at 3plus in the afternoon. Played 21 there agn. Until 7plus. Headed home. Realised that relatives weren't home, I decided to walk to Northpoint to get a new screen protector for my phone. Reached void deck and saw them waiting for lift too (;

I hope time will pass slowly. There's so many quizzes and one proj due next wk. Exams are round the corner too. z Stress die me. Goodbye.

Two Years Later,

2012-01-22T21:56:00.003+08:00

It's CNY eve today ! Just had reunion dinner at home - STEAMBOAT ! :D

Before.

After.

Anyway, I met B for 3x this wk. Totally loving this wk like mad. 18th was our official first monthsary. Met this boy after sch ended for me headed to town to catch We Bought A Zoo. I finally bought two bottoms at FEP. Loving the high waist pants very much. Forgot what else did we do actually.

Met Phoebe on Friday after my sch ended. This girl actually overslept so I met her at Orchard instead. Sakae buffet for lunch ! We were mad hungry but I was the one who ate more than her instead. Chatted and shopped till we lost track of time. Separated at 530pm and met B at Somerset station and headed back to Yishun for my dental appt. K, this dentist seriously can be more violent ! z Went to have our dinner at HK Cafe and B said smth unexpected O: Homed at 10plus. Met agn on the next day.

Supposed to meet at 1230pm and we ended up meeting at 130pm bcos of me. Procrastinator. Headed to AMK Lib to meet B. He taught me integration till I understood. Let's hope this will cont ! Must pass sem paper ! :/ Then it rained cats and dogs and we had to run in the rain to AMK Hub for movie. Caught JacK & Jill. I like. Damn hilarious ! Dined at S11 nearby and home.

Love You Like A Love Song,

2012-01-15T13:31:00.001+08:00

It's Sunday today. Time flies. Wkends are always so short while wkdays pass like a snail.

I dislike Mondays. There's lab lessons and I knw nth for DFUND lab. Okay, at least I can manage to understand a lil for the recent one. z

Reunion dinner w relatives ystd evening at one of the tzi char place in McPherson. The food there is nice but thanks to my lousy appetite, I didn't eat as much as I would normally. Didn't chat too much as I was studying a bit of French. I knw that was rude but my test is on Tuesday and there's a lot to study ! ): CNY shall be a different one.

Speaking of CNY, I've a few things not bought yet. I think it's like gone case... Shall upload a few photos ltr if my laptop allows me to transfer from phone folder to laptop. It's a bit crazy right now.

Back to French culture. z

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/edited @ 12:44am

Here it is.

Strawberry chicken (smth)

Black pepper crab which I can't eat

When There's Nothing I Wna Care,

2012-01-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

Guess what ! There's Maths quiz 2 tml and I'm here updating my blog.

Seriously, I didn't knw why I chose this course in the first place. But I rmb very vividly that I put it as 2nd choice bcos I was afraid that there wouldn't have any slot for me in poly. Okay, that's kinda lame. I don't like this course at all. z. Shall bear w it. As long as I don't retain. Getting an average results, to me, is alrdy good enough ! I'm gna retake English this yr. Yes, for the freaking 3rd time. z. There might be 4th time, 5th time, 6th time... Who knows. But as long as I pass eventually, it doesn't matter how many times I'm gna retake just to pass it right ? (: As long as I've done my best for the paper itself.

K, gotta go back to maths now. Goodnight.

Top Resolutions,

2012-01-03T21:13:00.002+08:00

Hello all. shall update this online diary now using my phone.

today's the first day of new term. I'm feeling damn tired ! didn't get enough rest during my term brk ! k, I deserve it ! went out too many times. so, we got back our DFUND and FundCE results ! I passed DFUND and failed FundCE ): and I got an unexpected results ! shall be contented. but shall study harder too. FundCE was disastrous as being mentioned that time after the paper. good thing was I expected that I'll flunk this paper. we'll be getting back our emaths2 results tml and hydraulics on Thursday ! pls let it be good ! ); don't wna fail anymore papers... I MUST STUDY HARD FOR MY SEM EXAMS ! gotta pull my GPA up !

here are my top 5 resolutions for the year of 2012.
#1 not to have any expectations in 2012. by not having any expectations means that there will be no disappointment. I don't wna get disappointed agn and agn anymore.
#2 save enough money ! hit the target I want to have in my bank account (; and I must get either a dslr or save enough money for my expenses for TW trip w family/relatives this June and maybe overseas trip w the girls (if it's still ongoing).
#3 spend quality time w my family, close friends and love ones.
#4 to stop being unreasonable. I'm hitting 20 this year. it's time to mature and grow up.
#5 stop procrastinating ! study hard and play hard too !

lastly, I believe that 2012 will be a great year ahead !

Happy 2012,

2012-01-01T17:57:00.000+08:00

Hello, I spent my last day of 2011 w the lovely people - my clique, at the chalet ! We had BBQ, photos captured, joy and laughter.

Nvr will I wna lose anyone of you.

Sylvia brought Kinect to chalet. Played that till we were damn exhausted by it. Then it was BBQ. Martin, WJ and Sylvia were the ones who started the fire for the BBQ ! Then it was FOOOOD ! KT came then followed by YiYong and CL.

We played "I Nvr" game. K, that was quite fun. Everything ended at about 9plus. Brought the cooked food into the chalet which obviously we didn't even touch at all. Wasted ! Then it was countdown. We heard fireworks and saw the light but to our disappointment, we saw NO fireworks at all ): A few of us even ran out upon hearing/seeing it, to the carpark. Sigh. Then Bro called me personally to wish my HNY ! (: What a sweet Bro ! He made me realised that I didn't wish my parents at all so far in this life. Called Mum and talked to her & Dad ! (:

Bathed then it was our overnight drinking and game agn. Had too much laughter during drinking session. As quoted by Martin to WJ: WJ is likka fan that's stuck which can't move w the sound 'tucktucktuck'. LOL ! We girls headed back to our room at 5plus in the morning and we all dropped dead on our bed bcos we were simply too tired to even have girls talk. Woke up at 8plus, changed and packed up to check out of the chalet.

2012 has arrived. I believe that it'll be a better year for both you and I and everyone else ! (:

Review,

2011-12-30T12:49:00.002+08:00

Hello, readers (whom I think no one will be reading anyway) !

Shall do a yearly review right now. I rmb doing friends review on the last day of 2009.

Anyway, this year... I must say that it isn't a good one. But it'll be over soon, in 1 day's time (:

January

I had a fantabulous New Year celebration w clique that night. I rmb us exchanging belated xmas gift. Then, I was still working at CityGas. My second month there. It was a good experience, I must say ! (: Gotta learn how to handle my stress bcos memorising those shitz are rlly tough ! Then I got to knw some people there. One of the colleagues there were from AndSS too ! What a small Singapore.

February

CNY reunion dinner w Clique at VivoCity. Then it was CNY and my maternal Grandpa passed away on the first day. It was a brking news bcos no one had expected that as he was still well a few days ago. Stayed at Bedok for the funeral. And I must say, thankyou to you for accompanying me via text though I knw how bz you were. Thanks and sorry.

March

Last month working at CG ! Then off to M'sia w half the clique on the 20th. First overseas trip w friends. Loving it a lot ! 4D3N if not wrong. I'm sure there'll be more upcoming ones. Seriously looking forward to it <:

April, May, June

The start of smth new. TBH, I dont like poly life. It's too much for me to handle. Alrdy having problem w studies the first wk when it started. Yeah, lousy right ? I knw. Then May came. The seriously emo period of my life in this year. People whom I told before would knw why. June was another bad month. If not for it, I guess everything will be different and I wouldn't have thought so much about overcoming smth (: I blame myself for that.

July

My birthday. This year there wasn't much celebrations for me compared to the previous years. Everyone's bz w their own lives. But I'm still happy about the presents received. Bwahahah. TYPICAL GIRLS ! Thanks people for the presents.

August, September, October

Mid-sem exams. Studied like dk what. Used 2wks to cover the chapters Idk. I suck at physics and Amaths. So, basically it's the whole course modules. LMAO ! Then it's the sem brk for 1.5mths. SHINee World Concert (SG) w Shinyou and her friend. K, it was awesome. Saw all my loved ones. Worked at Taka together w Amzar. We kept taking the chocolates to eat. Working there is totally damn relaxing. Knw a few friends. Mindy - who's my ex-junior from AndSS :D Then Phoebe. This girl... She's totally not her age but love going out w her :D Then worked for 3wks and off we go ! :D Enjoyed my last wk of holidays before sch started. New modules are horrendous. Okay, not rlly but I couldn't cope at first. ESP DFUND and Hydraulics. Bought a pair of skates. Darling joined as well (;

November

Term tests... I don't have much confidence actually. Still hoping for the very best actually bcos I spent some time studying... Chilli's belated celebration tgth w his friends. I guess, no matter how hard we tried to avoid, things that wna come to us, will eventually be back. They are so inevitable.

December

Term brk started on 16th December. Actually term tests were in this month too. K, forget it. LOL ! Went jogging w Mr Z a few days after he's back from his school trip. Then it was another 2x agn. And we went shopping and/or chill out.Thanks for all the words. Went out w Bestie and Wifey on separate days alone :D Long time no see ! (;

In Conclusion: 2011 has been a not-so-bad year for me. I guess it was only bad in the mid-year. 1more day to 2012. I shall pray hard that 2012 will be a good one. I knw there'll be many problems that we'll be facing next year esp when you're going for NS soon. But I guess this is what everyone will be facing one day (: We'll overcome it together ! (:

Tml's clique chalet ! Though only some will be attending, I guess that's not too bad after all (: I'll be spending my NEW YR EVE AND FIRST DAY OF 2012 w clique ! (: Love them so much. They're the ones who accompanied me thru the darkest moments ! (: Thanks for all the laughter that you guys brought me.

I love having h2h talks w my loved ones.

Memories,

2011-11-26T23:37:00.001+08:00

Thanks for everything, x.

SHINee,

2011-09-12T17:30:00.001+08:00

Hi, it's been a long time ! (:

Shall summarise

Exams were disastrous. Cfm to take supp papers. 16th is the release of results ! /prayshard
CCA: Skating on fridays. I learnt how to back-skate. Gotta work harder on t-brk and snake.
Smth good and bad happened on 3rd Sept, which confused me a lot ! ):
Dad's bday on 3rd Sept too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! Bought him smth practical.
Brkfast w clique on 4th as SY will be away from town for a month long ! ): Tkcare friend.
Prata @ Jln Kayu and animal farm after that (w/o SY) !
Shopping w Amzar !
Marina Barrage and had our Garrett Popcorn there.
Played pool w Jeff, WJ and YS the next day. Was late though.
Had my Astons > Slacked @ TCC > Sch for skates
Went ^'s house after sending his dad away. 1year, tkcare Uncle ! (:
Skates, as usual. Then headed to XLK's chalet. Had a mini gathering w 6c'04 there.
SHINee World Concert (Singapore) on the 10th w Constance and her friend, Elvina !
SWCSG was a blast ! Awesome max ! :D
And I only rested for one day for the whole of one wk, which is wednesday !
Today's the first day to rest for this wk ! (:

Next up, I have

Mini clique gathering before YY flies off for a wk !
Work @ Taka
F1 grand finale
Skates chalet
Small getaway
Many more skates session to attend to get my seal points ! ):
AND ... 2PM's concert ! Gotta save money from now onwards ! :D

Talked to Shinyou on concert night. Thanks, shin ! (: I love the words you told me and appreciated a lot ! (: I find it quite true too. You opened my heart ! :D Bwahahah ! <3

PS, I still can't forget the things that happened during SHINee World Concert (SG) ! :D LOVE THEM TO BITS ! And "My first kiss went a little like this... And twist." - Key and Taemin ! :D Jonghyun's solo gave me goosebumps ! I'm sure that he's singing for me though !! ^^

Hello, and Goodbye,

2011-07-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

Hello ! :D

21st July was Mum's birthday. Her lady boss booked a room for us and we stayed there one 2D1N :D Took a direct bus outside school to MBS to meet parents. Bro came after awhile. Started preparing and went for dinner. Aunts and Grandma came at 7plus. Went up to Skypark :D The scenery was oh-so-AWESOME-ttum !! It's magnificent to be precise ! :D Bad thing was, Bro actually forgot to bring his memory card though he brought his DSLR ! So I had to lend him mine even though I brought camera to Skypark.

Chilled at Beanstro w family after Aunts and Grandma left. I had double hot chocolate w marshmallow. That's what I called LIFE ! Enjoying life to the max ! :D Went back hotel and fell aslp halfway while texting.

Woke up the next morning, prepared and went up to Skypark agn w parents only. Bro went up for swimming session for 2hrs before we woke up. Then packed, put things in car. Brkfast and checked out after meeting lady boss and family.

Headed home and took my nap for 2hrs even after having a short nap omw home. This shows how tired I was. Plus I was having bad flu. Overslept and late in meeting best bud luckily he was patient enough to wait for me :D Supposed to walk arnd northpoint but due to the lack of time, we decided to head to Tampines and had Macs for dinner instead ._. Ate very fast, but not so fast. Reached school and he left for his TPSU camp while I went for my skating session :D A senior knew that I had bad flu so he lent me his skates but didnt expect me to skate. So for that 3hrs, I was sitting at one spot. Then two CKT mentors came to find me and we chatted all the way till skates ended.

From one of the mentors > skating > how dangerous sports are > injuries > KPOP > ghost stories ! Funny things happened after the ghost stories session bcos I didnt dare to enter the girls' toilet. LOL ! Headed home after that. Next skating session will be skating from school to ECP !! O:

Shit Happens,

2011-07-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

Met up w BFF for lunch today. Awkward things happened after BFF left so I went to find Twinsoul and his friends while they're having their lunch. Just dont understand why.

I feel that I dont belong there. SERIOUSLY, I MISS PEOPLE IN ANDERSON SECONDARY SCHOOL A LOT ! Be it close or not, I still see everyone of us as a family. Maybe like what someone told me, "maybe it's bcos you've alrdy spent some time w them that's why bcos I felt that way too."

FTSHITZ LIKE SERIOUSLY PLS !

Be My Nothing,

2011-07-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

I have been at this page for the past 20mins and nth came into my mind of what to update while transferring maths notes and tumblr-ing.

YES, that's the only thing I could come up w. What a long sentence. Kbye ! (:

Finally,

2011-07-17T20:56:00.000+08:00

I DONT LIKE TO BE FORCED DOING THINGS THAT I DONT LIKE ! WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND ME ? I THOUGHT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO KNW ME THE BEST ! Z

A Place In This World ?,

2011-07-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

I'm in a place where it doesnt belong to me, at all ! (:

Tonight,

2011-07-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hello,

It's very weird for me to update this time of one of the wkdays. But since I've nth to do now while waiting for my hair to dry, I shall update a lil now (:

Had Timbre w clique one day after Chalet w X1102 ended. Went to Timbre @ Old School. Took lotsa photos there and Shinyou dedicated a msg for me that night ! ♥

♥

Shall dry my hair now and go to bed soon ! 10am lesson tml ! Sucks ! ): Goodnight !

Let's Forget About The Unhappiness,

2011-07-09T15:03:00.001+08:00

The last challenge ! (:

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
I've nvr been confident about myself ever since young. I've low self-esteem. People always say, hey you're good blahblahblah but I dont think so. I've no reason why either. But I do have to admit that I love my nose at times. HEHEE !

Photos time (;

I looked as if I had horns

Idk whose house it is but I love the Minnie !

***The End***

Lighters,

2011-07-08T12:37:00.000+08:00

My 800th post, finally ! :D

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Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
A few girls. I wont list out your names (: Everyone's busy w our own things right now so I guess everything shall be written down in my diary or private blog (:

---To Be Cont'd---

Smile,

2011-07-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Z. He changed my life from bad to good (: Perhaps it all started when I realised I had feelings for him (: OR MAYBE NOT. MAYBE NO ONE AT ALL (:

---To Be Cont'd---

Lonely,

2011-07-06T22:03:00.001+08:00

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
None. I knw many people for more than a day ! (:

Down To Earth,

2011-07-05T20:04:00.004+08:00

Another two days that I didnt update ! Reached home at 8plus ystd and fell aslp while watching Ah Di. LOL ! Watched Incredible Tales and went to bed at 11plus. SUPPOSED to be falling aslp arnd that time too but who knws that freaking fan had to be spoilt at 12plus. Then I fell aslp at 1plus in the morning. Thanks ah, LOVELY fan !

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Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
I guess no one I knw is going thru the worst of times right now ? Perhaps, some of us who are struggling and trying to cope w studies ? I'm one of them ): Trying my best now as I've missed 2days of lesson due of my illnesses. Freaking weak immune system I have !

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
That freaking nice guy friend I made in poly, AMZAR ! (: Thanks for always being the one who'll be there for me whenever I'm feeling down or happy or freaking high or fazhu. Although smth bad happened in between but I'm rlly relieved and happy that we actually managed to overcome that stupid obstacle and back to talking terms again. In fact, as close as how we were in the past ! Yes, we'll forget about it very soon (: Thanks for listening to my woes most of the time and also letting me throw tantrums at you as and when I like and also pinch you like there's no tml (I likey) ! ^^ I knw I'm always the one ignoring you for nth (or maybe there is just that I didnt tell you) and then you'll keep asking me bcos you're concern abt me. Thankyou ! I may not be one of your best friends in poly, but I rlly hope that our friendship will last, like what you told me a few days ago ! :D Yknw I've nvr wanted to lose you as my friend bcos yknw me inside out w/i these two months in poly ! Idk how we did it too ! But I'm still glad to have you and knw you ! <; I knw this blog is locked, but I rlly hope that YOU WONT FORGET ABOUT OUR DEAL ABOUT YOUR SMOKING HABIT ! :D A few more days to your Macs deluxe breakfast from me ! :D

---To Be Cont'd---

Even Brighter Than The Moon,

2011-07-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

Timbre w friends last evening to celebrate Wei Xiong's big day ! :D Had a blast one !

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Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
I've alrdy given that person a second change (: And we're back to close friends once again. 'Nuff said (:

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That's to make it up to ystd's post since I didnt update. Here's today's (: Dont tell me about the number bcos I skipped one question on purpose. #23 is kinda sensitive and personal (:

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Z. Anything related to this type of questions will all be linked to Z (: Thanks for the mmrs, Dear. I hope you do well for your A levels and start studying now instead of playing the whole day ! (: Pls do rmb what you once told me in the past. Your dream. I rlly do hope that you still rmb about them.

I told a few of my friends about what we did in the past. It's so hard to forget about them. I wont forget but I'll just safekeep everything at a corner in my heart ! (: I rlly hope that you'll find a girl who's much better than I am, in future ! (: God bless you in everything and whatever you do, ♥

---To Be Cont'd---

Replay,

2011-07-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

No school for today bcos it's FRIDAYYYY !! :D But I woke up early to go to school to submit my freaking IGD assignment and both MCs. I think the MC for 28th June has got no use anymore bcos all MCs need to be submitted w/i 2working days. Nice one ah ! ): ESFAC cfm mark me absent alrdy ! ): Went to temple to pray w parents and lunch at Khatib then home and napped till 5plus (; My gastric still hurts freaking much ! WTSHITZ !

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Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
I judge everyone when I first talk to them. But most of the time, I'll be wrong. Just like recently. I need people to tell me what kind of person they are, I'll then believe after things happened. Bcos I'll always defend for that particular person whom we're discussing and didnt trust the person who told me. Yes, that's me ! And I'll regret when things happened. I should learn to be smarter. HAHAH !

---To Be Cont'd---

Why Do I Care So Much For,

2011-06-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

I'm absent from school again for today. Not diarrhea this time round. But it's gastric problem. Vomited gastric juice thrice the moment I woke up. Absent from school for 2days in a wk. I hope I can cope w studies sia !

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Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Dear Z,
I knw it's not your fault at all. But bcos I put in more than 100% of love and effort into this r/s, that's why I thought that you're. 2.5years of r/s and also 2yrs of liking you/each other secretly isnt easy to forget. I forgave you bcos I knw that there's nth to be angry about actually. This is just part and parcel of life, isnt it ? (: Take it as an experience learnt. Life has to go on. Move on. Everyone has moved on. I shall too (:

That's it ! (:

Thank You,

2011-06-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

Had food poisoning ystd ! Thanks to the chinese stall at Northpoint foodcourt the day before !! Had diarrhea for five times for the first time in my life. But I seriously dont mind if I can slim down from here. HAHAHAH !! Went to school for 3hours and home after that as I couldnt take it anymore. Visited the doctor and he said I had food poisoning. LOL ! And today's Mum's turn to have bad diarrhea ! Ah, thanks ah ! Mine hasnt recovered and it's Mum's turn. Bad day !

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Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
I can't tell if it's a good or bad thing. But one thing I'm sure of, I just dont want to be troubled by this thing and I shall get it out of my mind soon. Yes, very soon. I shall and I will (:

Don't You Cry,

2011-06-28T16:12:00.001+08:00

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
The old me. Havent been feeling happy lately ever since smth happened. Only a few knew. Yes, I've been trying to feel happy again. Trying my best to cheer up. Trying to be back to the crazy and retarded eileenY again. But it's kinda hard. I'm still trying my best for everything. Worse is that, new term has started and I've yet to remove that emotions away from me. Promised the ones whom I told that I'll have my smiles hanging on me again, soon.

Shant reveal much over here. And no, pls dont ask me about it after reading.

---To Be Cont'd---

When Funny Is Equivalent To Sadness,

2011-06-27T20:33:00.004+08:00

I doubt I'll be switching on my laptop since new term started today. So, I shall just schedule my post for the sake of the 30days challenge (;

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Actually I didnt contact any of my childhood friend. But I rmb there are a few girls who we were my "best friends" in kindergarten. We'd play I don't friend you/her/him. I recently saw two of my kindergarten friends in Yishun. Ah, they're so tall now. I couldnt recognise one of them until my mum told me it's her.

Idk what to update for this as well.

My 5th or 6th birthday

I'm the only one w watch. LOL !

---To Be Cont'd---

White Horse,

2011-06-26T17:13:00.001+08:00

Timbre w dearest friends last evening was fun, esp the photo-taking part. I love being w them, alot alot alot !

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/
country

No one. I knw no one who's not in my state/country.

---To Be Cont'd---

Sometimes, when you walk one step to the wrong path.. That's the end
of you no matter what. No matter how others assure you that nothing's
gna go wrong. I dread going to school now.

From Then On,

2011-06-25T15:45:00.000+08:00

Shall update before going out w my dearest friends (:

Day 15 — The ~~person~~thing you miss the most

I changed it to thing bcos I miss my past the most. I wna be a carefree girl who cares about nothing but only eat slp shitz and play like no tml ! I miss the past when there's just YOU in my world. Those were the times I enjoyed myself the most bcos of the memories that led me to nowhere. It's neither here nor there.

Yes, I knw I shouldnt think about it anymore. Was talking to WJ on skype about this last night. Such a good counsellor eh. Thanks for the words and advices. I'll try to move on and stop all these shitz from now onwards.

---To Be Cont'd---

When Smiling Helps No More,

2011-06-24T23:28:00.001+08:00

I'm back and feeling down. Real down.

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Idk if this is counted as drifted apart bcos we hardly meet up now. Dajie, Imissyou a lot ! We shall meet up for lunch or dinner one day when we're both free, kay ? Though I knw you wont be reading this. I'll text you some day (:

xx,
eileenY

---To Be Cont'd---

Cry No More,

2011-06-23T16:38:00.001+08:00

Day 2 when I'm not at home (:

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
No one. I've alrdy forgiven that person long time ago. So far, no one has ever offended me in a very jialat way ever since that incident ! (: Everyone shall leave in peace - v^^

---To Be Cont'd---

Hello Baby,

2011-06-22T15:34:00.003+08:00

While I'm away for the first day ...

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

I dont hate that person at all (: In fact, I thank him for teaching me a lifetime lesson, which is: to treasure people when they're still arnd you. I guess it's time to learn to let go, like what many people had advised me. I'll.

---To Be Cont'd---

The final breakdown,

2011-06-21T14:29:00.002+08:00

An entry before I switch off my laptop and clear my desk and room for a new study table and chair to be arrived on Friday ! :D

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Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Dear Grandpa,

You've be gone for almost 3years. Time passes in the blink of an eye. I knw it wasnt nice to have walked away in that way, in a hospice. But I guess, like what the adults said, you didnt want us to see you leave. You left in the morning after the adults left your ward. It was nvr nice to accept the fact that you're gone and I had to go to school the 2nd day after you left. All I thought was to end school asap and go to your funeral asap !

I rmb when I was still a kid, I was alrdy the do-not-want-to-listen-to-you type. But I dont rmb you nagging at or scolding me at all. I love it when you carry me high up into the air. I rmb when we were still a kid, x {I'm not gna name cousins' names here :D } was kinda scared of you and I was the one who was always glued to you wherever you go even at home. And when x was scared, I showed x that you're not a monster and that there's nth to be afraid of. HAHAH! Those were the very innocent times. Before your house got renovated, I love it when we, the kids then, climbed up to the highest "step" on your gate and you've to carry us down one by one. Despite that, we climbed up again and you've to repeat what you did before. Nonetheless, you told us you enjoyed it. We too ! There's this picnic that I rmb very vividly at ECP w family and relatives. I rode of a 3 or 4 wheels bicycle. Grandpa was behind me all the time. And as I've mentioned in the first sentence, I didnt listen to him. And I rode on an unbalanced pathway and fell down. Heh, it was Grandpa who picked me up. Thankyou.

HAHAHAH ! There's this time when I was at grandparents' house bcos I didnt want to go daycare centre. Dad sent me there and it was lunchtime. Grandpa had to feed me from kitchen to living room bcos I didnt want to eat at all. Kay, I was a very naughty girl in the past. It must be hard on you. Then it was Bro's gameboy or toy. Dad or Mum was angry and threw smth into the rubbish chute. You went down w Bro to the chute just to find back the thing. And from what I rmb, you'd buy toys for Bro when parents didnt want to buy for him. In the past, we always have overnight stay at your house w a few cousins. You'll slp in the living room for us kids to slp in the room w Grandma. But if not wrong, we went to the living room to slp as well as we wanted to have that experience of slping in the living room. LOL ! Then you had to be very careful so as not to step onto us. I love it when you pushed me high up into the sky on the swings. Yes, good memories of the swings started here. But asdfghjkl ! They just had to remove the swings and the climbing things downstairs to build a multi-storey carpark !! UGH !

It was 2007 Nov when we realised that your leg was swollen. We advised you to visit the doctor. You did, together w Aunt. It was then that the doctor said you're diagnosed w cancer. asdfghjkl ! Seriously, why you ?! ): We found out on the last day of your funeral that you were supposed to retire and enjoy life just 2days after you went to visit the doctor ! It was terrible seeing you trying to talk when you'd no strength at all.

Now, we'll have to go to the place where "you" are at to talk to you (: I love the time when Grandma asked me to try the red thingy and it was a success for me being a first timer. LOL ! They always say Grandpa doted on me and Bro the most. I believe so (:

The final breakdown. You're the best grandpa ever, Grandpa Y.
I love you, Grandpa Y.

I'm still trying to find more photos.

---To Be Cont'd---

Yesterday's,

2011-06-21T13:35:00.002+08:00

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

This actually applies to some friends in primary and secondary schools. We've drifted apart ever since we graduated from primary and secondary schools respectively. As much as I wanted to meet you, I knw we do not have the time at all. Our timetables will always clash and also the CCAs now. Your projs and mine. But fret not, bcos we're gna have our long hols soon. Meet up soon, girls & boys ! :D There are way too many names to be typed here (: I knw can alrdy. HAHAH

I Hate This Love Song,

2011-06-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

For ystd's. I forgot to schedule it (:

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

My future husband. So that I can save all my tears and anger from the heartbreaks I get.

Enchanted,

2011-06-17T14:56:00.005+08:00

Good afternoon, readers ! (:

Shall post this before going out w Mum ltr. Mum finally bought me a new study table and chair from IKEA ! ♥ More space for me to put my laptops, printer and all the nonsensical stuffs :D Love the chair very much though it's not the red chair I wanted initially ! Dinner at IKEA was fulfilling. Chicken wings :D And I love the trolley at IKEA. Remind me of the times when I played kids scooter. Luckily I didnt knock anything or anyone down. Thinking back, it's kinda funny that I could actually balance myself on a double wheel kids scooter but didnt knw how to ride a bicycle back then. LOL ! I shall schedule my post for tml since I wont be at home for the whole of tml :D BBQ W CLIQUE ! ^^

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Nothing much about this. I have friends online but I dont have a favourite one. Kbye ! (:

---To Be Cont'd---

Back To The Past,

2011-06-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

This post may contain things that you wouldnt want to read. So if you wna read, please do not talk about it after reading. Thanks (:

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend~~/girlfriend/love/crush~~

Dear Z,
Thanks for the memories you've given me from 2008 to May 2010. There are so many memories to be mentioned here. I thank you for giving in to me for umpteen times and also thanks for tolerating my nonsense in the past. But in fact, we started way back in 2005 - 2007. I guess you alrdy knew my temper way before we got together because I gave you a bit of attitude just a few hours before movie marathon. Heh, I guess I'm the only one who rmb all these lil details.

Like what I've mentioned in my previous post that I didnt knw the meaning of love until a year when Someone was added into my world, again. Yes, we were together in 2005 but I guess back then, I didnt treasure what's mine. Then it started again in 2006 and we started going out in 2007. Many things happened in between 07 and 08. But I thank God for letting such a nice guy into my world in 2008 just a few days after V.day despite having to be separated in the end. Those were the times.

Thanks for going to all the places that I wanted to go and the movies that I wanted to watch. Yes, all along I knw that you dont like to watch romance and kiddish movies but you accommodated me just bcos I wanted to watch all those genres. Thanks for the lovely birthday present back in 2008. I love the way you phrase everything and the MM puzzle that you took one whole night to fix just for my bday, which wasnt meant to lemme knw. You got angry after someone let the cat out of the bag. But it's alr bcos only that I'd knw that you actually put heart into it and that's the first present I ever received from ex(boyf). And also the lovely letter which surprised me after you told me there's smth that you kept in the puzzle. Then it was '08 chalet w the clique. I guess you were surprised by the DIY album I made for you bcos you told me you almost teared after reading it. That's the most satisfying thing I've ever done in my life. And I sang w you the London Choco Roll while walking back to chalet w my sexaye and off pitched voice bcos I had sore throat and my voice was partially gone. SEAL-liked voice, that's what you said. Then it was Valentine's Day. I made you a card and I gave you in advance bcos I thought we wouldnt meet on the actual day. I didnt knw you actually surprised me by dropping a letter into my bag and told me when I reached home. I didnt knw your actions were that fast. Then it was my 17th birthday. Thanks for the lovely necklace and funny love letter. Thanks for putting on the necklace for me and also the birthday treat. I knw that was the first time you ever went shopping alone for a girl's present. Not even your Mum's. On the day when O levels results was released, you consoled me upon knwing my results. You kept telling me that my C.Humans and Chinese were good (': Then it's '09 clique chalet again. Thanks because we rlly had some time alone. Then it was your birthday again. Time flies. This time was a simple present from me that I was damn upset w myself though you kept assuring me that the picture I had chosen was the one you liked the most.

Then you entered JC near my house. You met me after your school for a few times and when your workload got heavier, we stopped meeting after that and only on Saturdays. Thanks for accompanying me on Sats despite you were tired and had lots of work to do / revise. Thanks for texting me everyday be it good or bad. Thanks for talking about our future w me whenever I was bored and whenever we're random. Thanks for imagining our lives together down the road. Even though we had lots of ups and downs, but we managed to go through it for at least 2years. I guess that was enough. I knw that our loves were real to each other because of all the conv we had in the past. People often say that we'll only learn how to treasure smth special after it's gone. Yes, I understand this after May '10. I guess I relied on you too much in the past 2-3years. 3yrs bcos you helped me even before we were together. This reminds me of the day when we spent 4hours at Siloso beach alone months before we got together. HAHAH ! Even though we didnt talk much but I guess it's the companion that matters.

Thanks for encouraging me on the day when I had my last paper last year. Thanks for all the jokes conv you played along on that day all the way till 9pm. Yes, I rmbed. That was like a fairytale story that I thought it wouldnt happen. Thanks for accompanying me via SMS for 3days straight when I told you about my maternal Grandpa earlier this Feb.

I still dont rlly dare to step into the places we've gone before. I shall, therefore, make a wishlist to step into
- Singapore Flyer,
- the river near SF,
- Snow City
- Museums (though I've alrdy been to one w CX Darling)
- Grand Cathay (though I've been there just ystd for the ladies)
- Henderson Waves
- Marina Barrage (Yes, I've been there once w clique for picnic after that. I gathered my courage to do so !)
- Chalets (there's one class chalet coming and I'm still contemplating though I've alrdy paid)
- Esplanade
- Sentosa

and many more. Some songs I listen to still do remind me of you. I knw I'm weird. It's been one year plus since it happened. Yes, we gotta move on but how am I supposed to do it when ... And I saw this tweet that a friend of mine retweeted this morning.

Once you have been hurt, you are scared to get attached again. You have a fear that every person is going to break your heart.

I guess everything that happens to have a starting will eventually have an ending too.There's no fairytale stories existing in this real world. Perhaps there are. But that's only 1/100 (?). It's kinda hard for me to imagine me and someone else being together. There isnt any sad things mentioned here bcos I wna fill this blog w only happiness (: That's the way life should be. And this is just one-quarter of the things happened in the past. Hehee, everything shall be kept in me ♥

Smth that you drew using my previous camera on V.day '09

---To Be Cont'd---

Superman,

2011-06-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

Kay, I was having problem w my Internet for the past 10mins. I think it likes only Bro's laptop but not both of mine !! Biased ass !

Day 6 — A stranger

Dear Stranger,
I knw I am petite and may seem weak but it doesnt mean that you can knock onto me and go w/o saying sorry. Yknw what's the meaning of rude ?! It doesnt mean that you can step onto my toes w/o apologizing.

Thanks for being so polite and said thankyou whenever I helped to open the door, like those bell boy.

Actually I've nothing much for this and I'm almost one hour late for this post.

---To Be Cont'd---

Amazed,

2011-06-14T20:36:00.001+08:00

Hello,

I'm currently having problems w my IGD proj ! ): Supposed to meet Dajie today to collect our certificate but just before I was about to leave house, I realised that the last day of collection was 31May. Called DJ and it's cancelled. Went down w Dad to collect it instead. Kay, gna go out w two primary schoolmates tml :D Kinda looking forward to it bcos I havent seen one of them for 6years. May there be topics for us to talk about.

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Day 5 — Your dreams

Dear Dreams,

I shall define you as the images happening in my mind when I'm slping. You made all the impossible images in my mind happening when smth has alrdy happened for so long. I can actually dream of the same thing over and over again for a few times on consecutive nights. Do yknw how scary that is ? Also, I dislike having the deja vu feeling ): Though it's quite amazing but I nvr rlly like it at all.

But still, I've to thankyou for letting me dream of my Grandpa for 3times (:

Actually I've nth much for this entry. Dreams are what everyone will have as we will always think of things before going to bed. Yes, that's what human brains are for (; {dont rlly make sense here}

---To Be Cont'd---

Love You Long Time,

2011-06-13T14:37:00.009+08:00

Hello, :D

Going for a haircut ltr w Mum. My fringe is irritating to my eyes. Shall cut it short. Random paragraph.

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Bro,
As I've mentioned in the previous post, you're rlly good to your sister unlike some other brothers who will nvr give in to their younger ones. I'm rlly lucky to have you as my elder brother !

I rmb that I was always the one who bullied you and then complaint to Dad that it's the other way round when I was still a kid. HAHAH, those were the times. And I often got you into trouble. I knw you may have hated me in the past and Dad for being biased. But luckily you were sensible enough, like what Mum said, you didnt grow up and turn into a rebellious teenager / adult cus of the past. Yes, there might be arguments between you and I when we were still in primary school. The times when we argued and fought in Sengkang house. But I happy happy times were more than the times we fought and argued.

You'd always buy food back from dk-where back for us to eat. Thanks for all the birthday presents I've gotten from you every year when I didnt buy you any at all ;x Yeah, this year was the first time if not wrong and the shirt was oversized. And thanks for not complaining about it though I knw it doesnt fit. But that's alrdy the smallest leh ! I rmb that there's once when I said the pink torto in Mini Toons was nice and you bought that for my birthday present. Thanks Bro. & I bought you the tomato for x'mas present but end up I took it to hug most of the time and returned it to you after that. Although we still argue at times, but the duration wouldnt last as long as when we were young. The cold war would end in just a few minutes and we're back to talking terms again :D Thanks for being my shield most of the time when Mum was gna beat me for doing smth wrong when I was still a clueless primary school kid. And in Sec 1 when I was reprimanded for some stupid things. Thanks for helping me to negotiate w Mum when she confiscated my phone in Sec 2. Thanks for every lil things you've helped me.

I rmb that when I was still studying in Chongfu Pri, I told you to lookout for me after you're dismissed from school bcos I wanted to say goodbye to you before you board the childcare bus and when there's once when you were looking out for me but didnt see me, I got so upset till I cried. And there's once when I alighted from the bus outside my kindergarten, and a friend chased after me but I didnt like it. You helped me by telling her off. Yes, you're rlly like a guardian angel to me. I guess you've helped me many times but I dont think that's it bcos till now I still need your help for so many things ^^

As the years passed, we got rlly closer. Friends often told me this, you and your brothers are like very close / can see that your brother dotes on you a lot. Yeaps, we are and he is :D And I'm rlly proud to have him as my brother ! If next life rlly exists, I wna be your lil sister again. I wna be in this family, being parents' child again too ! <;

I've many photos for this post :D:D

I find this funny. Bro is always full of weird ideas up till today.

♥

I didnt knw that I had bald spot when I was so small. HAHAH

He looks like an ang moh ):

Yessss, I love the bday cake and I wasnt born yet ):

This is so cute !! ♥

I just realised that I'm always one head shorter than Bro since young. Kay, short ! Hahah.

“Siblings are the unbreakable bond between God's greatest gift to parents.”

--- To be Cont'd ---

Addicted To You,

2011-06-12T22:00:00.004+08:00

Hello, this is my 777th post after 1year & 3months. In fact, 6more days to 1year 4months. It was my 700th post waiting to reach 777th eagerly at that time. But I am no longer looking forward to this number anymore after some time. Was browsing thru the photo albums in the afternoon for this 30day challenge. I miss those days when I had nothing to worry about at all !

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Day 3 — Your parents

Dear Beloved Parents,
Thanks for bringing me into this world. Thanks for all the pampering you all gave me for this 18, almost 19, years of life. I rlly feel blessed to be born in this family. Though I always throw tantrums at the both of you, and feeling guilty after that, but yknw the love I have for both of you can nvr be explained by words.

Thanks for lifting me up again and again after smth happened last year when I felt that life was kinda meaningless for me. Thanks for encouraging me all the time when the level of my confidence dropped to the lowest level just before the 2nd time of my O levels. Thanks for all the constant reminders, nagging and scoldings from the both of you, in fact my Bro joined in too, whenever I dropped a tear bcos of my previous r/s. Thanks for all the birthday celebrations you both gave me when I was younger. Yes, I just asked Mum why they didnt celebrate for me for these few years and she said, "but you got expensive presents from us." Hehee. True enough. Thanks for not giving up on me when I was a rebellious kid in Sec 1 - 2. Yes, my most rebellious moments and I kinda regret it.

Sorry for being a nuisance to the both of you throughout the years in primary school. All I did was nth but cried in the morning and being reluctant to go to school every morning when I had morning sessions. But thanks for giving me rewards when I got first for both English and Chinese {in class. LOL}. Thanks for giving me another reward when I was a prefect cus of good results and also when I got into the first class of EM2 {supposedly EM1. LOL}. Sorry for making you worried for me when I first got a boyf at the age of 13. Thinking back, it's nth but just puppy love until I rlly knw the meaning of love in sec 3. And despite all the rejections, I still got together w Him. Sorry for everything and thanks for the treat, Mum :D Sorry Dad, for always making you waiting for me to reach home whenever I go out w friends till late.

Lastly, Thanks for giving me such a lovely, nice, caring and considerate Brother ! I guess if someone else were to be my Bro, he wouldnt pamper and give in to me as much as him ♥ ! Yes, I'm always reminded by Mum that Bro treats me very well. Thanks for all the love from the 3 of you ♥ Thanks for every lil thing that you have done for me in this 18 - 19 years of life.

My first birthday celebration at a hotel restaurant :D

ILOVETHIS PHOTO VERY MUCH ! :D

Hahah, after looking at all these photos .. I think Mum became prettier instead of aging. HOW CAN THIS BE ?! ): So demoralizing for me !

“The love of a family is life's greatest blessing”

---To Be Cont'd---

Hold My Hand,

2011-06-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

Hello again (;

Shall update about the past events I had for the past few wks.

Judging from the photos I uploaded on FB, I think I shall start w the short shopping trip I had w my girls. Out w Con Hz Sylvia on one Saturday. I bought 3tops if not wrong. Left at 4 or 5plus if not wrong, to meet classmates to study at Raffles City. Turn out that it wasnt that productive. HAHAH !

Then it was 21May. Had my FTT in the morning and yea, I failed again bcos I had no time to study for it at all. Met up w Clique for singing session. We were so crazy to the extent that we went Party World after Kbox @ *Scape. So it was a total of 6hrs ! Pepper Lunch for dinner when there's a word lunch there.

Then the most recent one was RSAF open house on Friday. Reached school at 830am. Freaking early. Timbre at night w classmates :D & Kungfu Panda w Amzar CJ Chufei Dom WJ and home at 2plus in the morning. I rmbed I was dead beat that night !

Fever befriended me on Monday and I went home halfway after CKT. Kay, I must admit that I can rmb all these things but not studies. Wtshitz !

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Day 2 — Your Crush

Hello ~~Future~~ Crush,
Crush is a definition of being pressed between opposing bodies so as to break or injure. LOL ! You'll only be an eyecandy to me bcos I dont believe in crush anymore (: And I've 0 eye candy up till today (;

sincerely,
eileeeenY

Wish You Were Here,

2011-06-10T23:13:00.004+08:00

Hello, after a month <:

Quite a number of things happened. I was so lazy to update my blog. But I shall do it almost everyday in this term break (: It's almost 2months since poly started for me (: Emaths sucks ! I dislike modules which gotta do w Physics ):

Kay anyway, I went out w Darling♥ ystd after our last papers. Heh, finally can have a day to meet in school ! But the bad thing about it was, I BROUGHT MY CAMERA W/O THE MEMORY CARD ! Win alrdy ! Shall summarize about ystd. Toastbox for breakfast at Tampines 1 > Something Borrowed @ Cineleisure (Thumbs up) > Marché for dinner @ 313 Somerset > Camwhore there > Orchard Central for instax photos > Home at 10plus.

I shall update about the past few events tomorrow (:

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Shall challenge myself to this, 30days letter challenge and, hopefully, complete all 30.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Since I just went out w you ystd, I shall dedicate this to you.

Dear Darling,
I've known you for 6years AND STILL COUNTING ! You're awesome & definitely someone whom I can always go to whenever I need advices. Cheer up okay ? (: You're a very bubbly girl to everyone of us. So I believe that you'll be able to handle it and overcome all obstacles. Most imptly, LAUGH MORE OKAY :D My crazy SHY darling. I've to emphasize on the word "shy" <; Heh, lastly ... Tell me How Can I Not Love You ? :D Nice song !! & now, I can't wait for our baking session to come soon when you're free :D

ILOVEYOU, CRAZY DLING !

xx,
Your Darling.

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& I remember all those crazy thing you said. You left them running through my head. You're always there, you're everywhere. But right now I wish you were here.

Home Is Where The Heart Is,

2011-05-07T11:22:00.002+08:00

Hello, I wonder who still read my blog nowadays when it's alrdy rotting like no one's business.

Anyway, school has started for me. 3wks including orientation wk. So far so good. I like my classmates :D

12April - Met up w Dajie and headed over to NEX. Lunched, movie, dinner were all settled over there. Caught RIO, the theatre was awesome.

24April - Met up w Dajie again :D Actually our motive was to shop at NEX but realised it's too confusing. Anyway, we caught movie together again. This time, it's Justin Bieber: Never Say Never. Kay, quite touching actually.

24April - A date w Darling ! :D But I think the shopping trip was quite short. Sorry ! Headed to FEP, saw many nice things but ended up buying only one flats bcos I was damn broke ): Had our dinner at Orchard ION and I headed to Grandma's house while D cont'd w her shopping w/o me ): I felt so guilty that day.

29April - Bought a laptop from sch, HP ! But wtf, it gave me problem since the 3rd day of using it ! I think my Baby VAIO is even better than HP ;x Anyway, had the first class outing on last Friday. Actually, only half the class attended and also 3GLs. Lunched at Just Acia at Marina Sq. Didnt finish my meal and gave the meat to Amzar. Kay, had a great laugh w those 3 guys sitting w me. Damn retarded. Anyway, caught Scream 4. Ah, I think it's bcos of the movies & meals that made me so broke leh ! ): I headed home after movie to only realise that Mum & Bro alrdy had their lunch.

30April - Out w Vanessa to Bugis. Accompanied her to shop for her clothings. Was having gastric problem for the whole day so I spent my money on just food instead of clothings. I'll get fat soon ): Jeff came and they left shortly ltr and I went to find Wanling Boyf for awhile. It's been a long time since I last saw her. Kay, the last time was one day before my bday, 9months ! Camwhore in the restroom and she went back to work. Headed home after that :D

Went back sch for nth ystd ): Inlined skating but ended up sitting there for an hour plus and we left. Heh, the in-charge apologised for the waiting time but it's okay since we'll still be going back there to play next Friday :D

Sometimes, I have the thinking of changing sch bcos of the long travelling distance and also I've to wake up so early. BUT THEN, I've awesome friends in TP ! Guess what ?! I met up Kahyong BFF for lunch together w my Twin on first wk of sch. Then I met up w Twinsoul at the library and we headed to interchange together :D I saw Joy while getting lost together w Twin and she rlly gave me joy. Saw Stella being a GL and we had a lil catch up session though it's just for awhile. Saw David outside library and yes, we're gna meet up for lunch / dinner one day together w WJ. & also, my classmates are awesome ! & I seriously love the fact that they're younger than me yet taller than me. I knw I'm weird.

K, I'm done. At least my blog is updated and not rotting anymore (;

Love Is You, So Tell Me What Is Love,

2011-04-10T12:54:00.002+08:00

I'm so gna pray hard so that it wont rain this coming Wednesday ! Kay lah, I rlly do hope so !

Played pool twice last wk. It's uber fun and crazy the first time of the wk.

5April

7April

Not many on the 7th of April, yet. Mostly are still w Joleen. Heh, that's all, folks ! Off to watch WGM - Khuntoria :D

쓸모없는 사실

2011-04-06T15:34:00.003+08:00

Before I update about pool post, I shall do

100 {useless} Facts About Me

I love my name being spelled as " eileeeen " all in small and 4'E's.
However, I love to type my chinese name in caps - XUNRU
I'm the youngest in my family & I think I'm being pampered by them a lot.
I'm not good in expressing my feelings towards my love ones.
I'm standing at the height of 152cm. Neither proud nor embarrassed about it :D
My weight used to maintain at 38kg for a few years from p6 to sec3 or 4.
I'm fat ! I've double chins, flabby arms, thick thighs and spare tyre ): Sad life !
I studied in two different primary schools. Chongfu then NanChiau.
My days/years in Anderson Secondary were well-spent
This year, I'm going to Temasek Poly (:
I have a clique consisting of at least 8people.
I still contact my primary sch friends up to this date.
I love sleeping in oversized T-shirt.
I love the number 8. But now I hate it a lot, esp the month of May.
I'm paranoid. VERY !
I used to love number 18 a lot. But, maybe, not anymore.
I think bright yellow is attractive bcos it can make me smile when I'm feeling down.
I like pink. But I love red. Yes, I'd go crazy over red stuffs :D
I used to be afraid of 20th May. He knew why.
I get jealous very easily since young age.
I dislike people who judge me when they dk me at all.
I own 7 spectacles ever since the age of 10.
I own 4 cameras ever since the age of 13.
I changed a total of 9phones ever since the age of 11.
I still love my red N76 the most !
I always think that I dont have enough clothings.
Mum bought me my first laptop bcos of a promise but I broke it eventually ;x
I received many presents on my birthdays ever since Sec2. Mostly soft toys.
One of my ex-boyfs even stayed up late at night to complete the puzzle for my 16th bday.
I was very happy to be w Z as compared to previous two. Yes, I knw I shouldnt compare ;x
I love Volkswagen New Beetle Convertible a lot ! My dream car ^^ Must be RED in color !
I believe in " sleeping is the best remedy to forget about all the unhappiness / stress ".
I dropped my iPod Touch on CNY Eve at Yishun NTUC ):
I think guys who are 1.7m or taller are cool :D
True, I'm still not over him, YET ! Doesnt mean I wont in future (:
I'd do anything for my boyf.
But sadly, Idk about fact #36 in future after my previous r/s.
I'm deeply in love w Mickey & Minnie Mouse
Hello Kitty as well since young.
I used to score for English in Primary school and also lower Sec. But as I grow older, my English standard dropped a lot.
I irritated one of my C.Humans teachers in Sec 5
I used to detest C.Humans alot. But miraculously, I scored well for that subject during N & O levels.
Though I got into TP, I still think that Ngee Ann Poly is the best ;x
Westlife was one of my favourite boy bands in in my pri sch days.
I think Gareth Gates is good looking bcos he has dimples.
I love my 2nd house bcos my room is 2x bigger than my current one.
I created Twitter in 2009 June out of boredom.
I created Facebook in 2008 Dec also out of boredom and persuaded the then-love-of-my-life to create as well.
I have a really sensitive skin. To seafood ? Idk, bcos nth happened.
I dont like my eyes recently. It's became smaller as years go by. Dark circles are even bigger than my eyes ):
I'm scared of needles. Needless to say, knives / operations.
I have small feet and many people often question me about my feet. I'm born to be small size !
I have small palms / hands too ^^
I'm a contradicting girl. I can't decide w/o someone giving me an answer.
I'm naggy. I can keep asking and asking till someone gives me the ans I want ^^
I love watches.
I love shades. But too bad, my face is too small to go for big ones ):
I love red hoodies.
I love jackets, black ones.
I like it when guys wear formal t-shirts. I think they look smart w it.
I find that guy who wear t-shirt and berms are cool. See, yknw what I mean by contradicting eh ?
I often ask myself " why are other girls so pretty and I'm so ugly ? "
I dislike loud songs like Techno, Hip hop or whatever genre.
I love emo, slow and nice songs w meaningful lyrics
Recently, I'm into Kpop.
TAECYEON, NICHKHUN, KIM HYUN JOONG, ETC :D
I scored 24 points for my O levels in 2009
Retook O levels in year 2010 and my results improved :D
I listened to Westlife's songs again ever since my breakup in May '10
I started listening to 987fm again in 2010 while mugging for O levels after my breakup.
It's 987fm that pulled me thru w those songs at night.
Sunday studying session w Kimberley was my motivation.
Also, Pamela's notes too :D Gomawo !
I think I've matured a lot after the break up. Thanks to those who pulled me thru ^^
The best Mother's Day gift I've ever given to Mum was crying the whole day and letting her worried for the whole of two months ;x Mianhae !
Also, my gastric suffered a lot cus of me. I was pure silly.
Started playing pool again ever since my break up.
I love to entertain friends, esp close ones. & I rlly do silly things to make them laugh.
I fell in love w Kim Hyun Joong ever since BOF was aired.
I want my future boyf to be like Kim Hyun Joong ! ;x So blur yet so cute !
Oh, I havent been exercising for 3months. I'm damn unhealthy inside, I knw ):
I love playing badminton.
I only learnt how to cycle at the age of 18. & it took me only 1/2hr to learn.
I took up swimming lesson at the age of 16 but quit halfway as N levels was nearing.
I love freedom.
I wna go on world tour in future. Provided if I've the money to do so.
I don't treat people the way they treat me. I believe that they'll have their karma if they treat me badly (:
I'm always very random, as told by a few of my friends.
I think IU is uber cute, esp the CF Samsung Galaxy Hoppin
So far, I've only went clubbing once in my life, w my ex-colleagues.
I'm recently very addicted to korean variety shows such as, WGM, FO & Idol Army.
Same goes for Kdramas.
I've went overseas w friends for once. I want that to happen for many times in future.
I'm grateful for having my family as my family {L}
I'm grateful for having those few close friends I have (Y)
I love taking photos. I want my future boyf to anticipate w me as well.
I have to stand on the right side whenever I take photos.
I love DIY stuffs rather than things which cant be used ;x
I do read but I seldom complete the book. I'm left w 1/4 for the current one.
I WANT IPHONE4 BADLY !

YAY ! I'm done after a few days. SLOW !

Once Is Never Enough,

2011-04-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

Updates for M'sia trip (; Photos are only 1/4 of the total ones.

Day 1 : Dad fetched me, WJ & YS to Golden Mile Complex. Met up w the girls and headed to the coach. J Ong & Shermaine were in the same coach as us. It took 7 - 8hrs to reach Genting. Tiring trip. I think my gastric pain started during the first day of the trip. & also cramp. Good timing eh ? We didnt have the chance to play the rides at outdoor theme park as it's raining cats and dogs on that day. It's uber cold, like 15 degree celcius ? Mad cold ! Dined at the foodcourt ( -.- ) and went to play pool, suggested by me :D I beat the guys kayyy ! ^^ Happy much ! Had indoor games for only RM40 for 8rides. Visited Ripley's Believe It Or Not & also the Haunted House before the rides. K, Haunted house was rlly crazy. At first, the staffs scared Constance and wanted her to go in alone while the rest of us gotta wait outside w/o her. We had our laughs. Then when we were waiting for the "elevator" or smth, the staffs let them in except ME ! WTF ! I finally understood shinyou's feeling at that point of time.

Day 2 : Woke up at 9.30am, bathed and went the 3-girls' room for breakfast. Got ready and checked out from FW Hotel. A mini van transported us to Swiss Gdn Hotel in KL after that. It took almost 2hrs and my ears got blocked and rlly damn pain. Sharp pain. Reached the hotel and checked in and everything. K, very tiring bcos I was the in-charge of the hotels but I enjoyed signing :D heheheheee ! Went Sungei Wang / BB Plaza and I bought quite a lot there. Headed back to hotel for shuttle van to Chinatown. I swear I wont step into that place anymore if I were to go Chinatown. So hot and crowded. LOL ! Back to hotel and there's when my gastric started to hurt again.

Day 3 : Woke up at 8plus. F-early ! Headed for brkfast buffet and back to room again as I forgot about my BB cream ^^ Left the hotel and headed to Times Square. K, I seriously bought a lot at that shopping mall. Finally bought my desktop mirror :D But I still need a standing one from Ikea. Anyway, headed back to hotel at 1plus and waited for shuttle van to KLCC. Took my nap while waiting as I was feeling unwell that day. Flu befriended me suddenly. Such an ass. KLCC, went on separate ways. I shopped w my -leen -eo ! Joleen :D Our conv was damn funny when we were deciding whether to enter Coach. Took cab back to Times Square for the indoor theme park & that's when everyone became listless after the dk-which ride. Chao ahgua ! I shouted as if I was gna die anytime during the ride when it overturned. & halfway thru the ride, I shouted that Idw to play anymore. Sylvia replied, " me too ! " LOL ! Had our last ride at about 8plus and went for last minute shopping for myself. Kaiting accompanied me :D and yes, finally found smth for Bro. Took cab back to hotel at just RM9 as everyone has got no strength anymore. Cup noodle & UNO before bedtime.

Day 4 : Woke up at 9plus and got ready for brkfast. I think I was the only one who bathed and wet my hair. Buffet for brkfast again ^^ Headed to somewhere near Sungei Wang for A&W at a later time for lunch. Checked out at 3.45PM & waited for the coach to come and HOME SWEET HOME back to SINGAPORE !

Ah, finally ! I've finished updating after one whole day ! Damn torturing ah ! & today's my 12th day of stay at home. K, I did go out in between but the furthest is still in Yishun area. Sad life eh ? And this post is damn wordy too. Cya ! :D & goodnight (;

It's April,

2011-04-02T16:08:00.004+08:00

It's alrdy the 2nd day of April. I didnt update at all in the month of March. So many things happened in the month of March. It's never good to fall sick esp when you're having gastric pain. It'll worsen everything !

I bought my Baby Lumix5 on the 4th March w my own hard earned money. It cost me $629 and that's why I was damn upset when one of my friends accidentally hit the lens when it's not even a day old. Bought Fujifilm Instax Mini 25, also w my own hard earn money, the following wk. Yes, I'm super in love w my 2 babies. Call me camera craze or whatever shitz, bcos I dont mind. Photography is my passion though I'm still trying my best to improve my photography skill :D

Then it's Sylvia's belated birthday celebration on the 6th March. It turned out to be quite a failed day. Headed to Golden Mile Complex for M'sia trip first before heading to SIM. We made a birthday cake for her, customized one kayyyy ! But it turned out to be quite ugly actually, as expected. HAHAHAH ! Paid a visit to our beloved YY at the hospital on that day. K, I think he has recovered well now. Tkcare can ! Shahril then accompanied me to Funan IT Mall to meet my Bro for my camera as it got hit and there's smth wrong w it. But too bad, the staff was being hostile to me. Fshitz ! But still, thanks Bro. Headed to Clarke Quay to meet up w the rest for dinner. Headed home after that at abt 10plus.

The end product. HAHAH !

So, it's my last day of work on the 16th March. Thank God I didnt receive any nasty calls from customers. There were 2 or 3 interesting customers asking for my numbers ._. & thank God that the company has voice recording systems :D So, overall, my 3months of work in CG was filled w nth but the word FUN ! I met nice people there. 3 people of the same age, others older than me but there was no age gaps at all. We talked and joked like we're of the same age. I like ! :D But no, I wont be going back to CG to work even if I'm invited. I had a hard time memorizing those charges and everything during my first month there.

I had 2 lessons of driving w my instructor. Yes, I quit after the 2nd lesson bcos he was rlly nasty to me. I hate people who are impatient. Hey, I'm a beginner and you expect me to knw which gear and clutch or whatever shitz ? Also, I drove on main road on my 2nd lesson and when the car was stalled, my instructor scolded me for being stupid. Yalah, you such a pro old man ! ^^

Mum had 2wks of off-days from work in March. Went shopping w her for 2days bcos by the time my contract has ended, she's left w only 4days of off-days ): Then Mum helped me to pack my luggage for my M'sia trip. Kamsahamnida, ♥ ! Shall update about my trip later otherwise it'll be quite a long post :D

Shall end this post w my Boyf(s) :D Yay, I'm so unfaithful !!

♥

생일축하,형제 !

2011-02-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

It's my beloved brother's birthday today ! & guess what ? This is the first time in my 18.5years of life that I bought a present for him. HAHAHA ! Failure right ? I cant rmb if I made birthday cards for him when I was still a small kid. But anyway,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, RETARDED BROTHER ! ILOVEYOU ALWAYS, though you always smack me and pinch my fats like no tml !! ♥

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I went to find the present alone okay ! :D This is the 3rd time I've ever done it for two guys and I dont regret doing it in the past too (: Heh.

Goodbye and goodnight. I've driving lesson early in the morning tml ):

안녕하세요, 사랑,

2011-02-26T10:53:00.002+08:00

#20: If you could have a world of your own, what would it be like? Who would be there? What would you do there?
It'd be a peaceful world w only the ones I love and the ones who love me :D The sky'd be filled w lots of stars at night so that I can go for star gazing w my love ones. I'd live near the beach so that I can listen to the sound of the waves everyday. It'd be damn relaxing. Oh, I'd take Taecyeon and Nichkhun there too. Or perhaps, the whole of 2PM members to sing the songs I want for me. LOL ! Maybe even Taylor Swift & Westlife :D I'd bring many dogs / puppies there to live w me too.

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HAHAHAHA ! K, I shall dream about that every night bcos it's impossible. Work's quite alr this wk, my standard sentence. Supervisor asked me whether I'll be extending my contract after it ends next month. I replied a NO immediately. HAHAHAH ! I knw I'm evil but I've been there for almost 3months. I need my break for a month before poly starts. Going for a getaway soon w my clique to KL + Genting once my contract ends :D

Oh, ystd during the last 2hrs of my work was damn interesting and entertaining. All thanks to a few customers who called in. But I couldnt laugh when talking to the customers as there's voice recording systems. Internal injury. LOL ! Anyway, I think I'm running late. Meeting my girls at 12PM yet I'm still here updating my blog. I've yet to dry my hair and have my breakfast too.

Bye ! :D

사랑,

2011-02-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

#27: List 5 things you want to do in your life.
1. University { I knw there's still a long way, but I shall TRY ! }
2. Go overseas w BFFs
3. KOREAAAA ! :D
4. Take a ride on G-Force at Clarke Quay {I hope I'll have the guts to do so}
5. Stay close ...

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Work's kinda slack this wk but there's a few calls for me on Friday which kinda scared the shitz out of me bcos I thought it's smth bad. Yes, I made 3 wrong appts for 1 customer but luckily he didnt scold me. Supervisor listened to the recording and good thing it wasnt my fault ^^ Then another call for me was enquiry. Spent my 5days in office watching Dream High ! (Y) for this drama ; Taecyeon. Oh, my supervisor didnt tell me to do scanning like finally. Told him that the scanner is testing my patience. I think he's also afraid that I might damage their things cus I wasnt gentle w it at all. HAHAHA !

Went Grandma's house, like finally. It seems that I havent been seeing some relatives for damn long. Left at 10plus and Regine was only leaving her school to grandma's place ):

I'm still so tired. I should start sleeping early and not at 2+ in the morning !

Hold My Hand,

2011-02-09T22:39:00.003+08:00

#17: Your favorite childhood memory.
I have a few, all are favourite (;
1. Smth which I've mentioned to cousins a few days ago - the stay over at grandparents' house at Pulau Ubin during mid-autumn festival, vesak day and many other occasions when we were still young. We'd watch opera {which obviously I didnt and dont understand at all, we even saw an actor there !!} at night and had our BBQ session at night till wee morning as there's no other neighbours nearby. Totally love the kampong lifestyle (Y) !
2. Going to grandparents' house over at Redhill. I rmb that there used to be 2swings and many round things for us to climb. We, cousins, would always pester ahgong to go down w us to play. He, being a grandpa, would always get worried about our safety and thus he kept following behind us. I love it when he pushed me high up into the "sky" when I was on the swing <':
3. Sending snail mail w a friend name ChengChin when we were at the age of 8 till the year when I shifted house to Yishun. Those were the times. Waiting patiently for a letter to be sent to my mailbox when I was still staying in Sengkang. But everything changed when I shifted house bcos I lost the address book ): But the good thing is, she found me on FB last year :D

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This year's CNY is a very special one. It made us and cousins of my mother side to meet for 5days consecutively. Of cus, it's not a happy occasion. Took off on Monday and Tuesday as I needed my rest on T. Resumed my work today. Slack, as normal. & I HATE SCANNING DOCUMENTS ! It's seriously testing my patience. I'm not one w high level of patience. Met Mum at Northpoint for dinner and home.

Taylor Swift's concert happened today, just now ): Nvrmind, I need my sleep badly. Gna KO soon. Goodnight ! (:

I miss my Grandpas );

Is This Over,

2011-01-30T18:52:00.001+08:00

I PASSED MY BTT !! :D But I've yet to apply for PDL ! This is damn dumb pls.

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#14: Your life story in three words.
It's getting better (:

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Met up w Darling on Friday after work to shop at NEX. Dined at Texas Chicken and shopped for her heels after that. Headed home at 10plus. It's seriously a short date but it's okay. We'll always have another date(s) in the near future :D

Had clique reunion dinner ystd at VivoCity. Was supposed to meet at 6PM but I overslept and woke up at only 5PM. Prepared and left at 6.30PM. Had our dinner at The Soup Restaurant. There's fireworks going on at Universal Studio for three times :D Likka free flow one. Headed to Haagen Dazs as I wanted to have ice cream. Everyone of us shared 4 between 2 people. Wanted to spend time at the roof garden but it was raining. Suggested taking cable cars but it's alrdy closed. Lepak-ed at a place near the cable cars place. Started our journey back home at 11.40PM. Reached home at almost 1plus. Damn scary when I walked home and that's the first time I ever felt that way.

The ice cream that YY & I shared which has a strand of hair ._.

Shinyou ♥

I find this photo funny thus I like it a lot.


2 ♥

I'm not done in packing my room yet ): It's a nvr ending thing. My room will nvr be tidied bcos there's too many things. Big ones small ones and I cant find places to keep them at all ): A few more days to CNY yet I cant feel that ambience at all. It's been raining non-stop since last evening. Shouldnt it be sunny and warm day instead of rainy days ? It's more likka xmas season, man !

Lastly, I hope that you'll be well and fine. Get well soon, Grandpa !

I've nvr expected that you'd be calling me. But now, I assume that everything has died down. All the best (:

Don't Want An Ending,

2011-01-27T01:16:00.001+08:00

#1 Why are you doing this challenge?
Idk.

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Refer to the video above. Love the song a lot ; Dont Want An Ending by Sam Tsui.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, BFF AND BROTHER ! :D

It's our beloved YY's 19th birthday last Thursday. Rushed to collect the cake after my work. I think I was being clumsy when I was on the company bus. The present hit the seat real hard and everyone looked at me ._. Surprise celebration after dinner at the roof garden. The wind was being a nuisance that night. Yes, nice surprise ! Headed to Bishan to meet Y for awhile and back home at 9plus.

Had an early reunion dinner w relatives on Sunday near Grandma's place. Had our catch-up session. Love the food there. Headed home at 10plus, work the next day. Monday Blues.

I'll be having my BTT later at 9.15AM. Goodluck because I didnt study much. Goodnight.

The Road That Never Ends,

2011-01-16T19:24:00.002+08:00

Went out w half-clique last evening for dinner at AMK Pizza Hut. I was late like mad. Supposed to meet them at 7pm there but I misread it and I thought 7pm at station. Then there's freaking slow traffic at Lentor Rd. Worse was, I alighted one stop before the real stop. Tiring ttm. Felt so weird when Sylvia wasnt arnd. Requested them to be noisy. Our conversation somehow got a bit heated whenever we talk about one topic. We all knw why (: Left at 8plus or 9pm. Headed to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Y and then headed to Liang Court to meet up w other 2friends. But there's a sudden change of plan so Y & I headed to ECP. I seriously love the sound of the wave (: Left at 12plus and headed to Woodlands for my craving ; egg prata :D Slacked, chit chatted and I cabbed home at 3plus in the morning. Dozed off at 4plus and I woke up at 1.39PM today :D Shiok though I'm still feeling tired up till now.

Idk what's right or wrong anymore. Or perhaps, left or right ...

So Tell Me Why,

2011-01-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

#3: Is the truth always good to hear? Why or why not?
The truth is not always good to hear. Bcos you'll start pondering about all the What If(s). & I tell you, I seriously hate the phrases of what if & if I've known earlier ... !

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Went out w 3girls ystd and accompanied Sylvia & Joleen for dinner at Pasta De Waraku while waiting for Mum's arrival. I watched them eat okay ! Being bored and had nothing to do, I started playing w J's camera. I love her camera uber much can ! Mum reached and I abandoned my girls. Dined at the nearby hawker centre and headed to OG to buy mattress covers. Dad came to fetch us home and my phone rang. I thought it's Dad when he alrdy saw us waiting there but turned out w be someone else. Nice timing eh ?! Headed home and chatted on phone till damn late ._. Fell aslp at 4plus and I woke up at 1pm today. Thinking whether I should go out alone to get some stuff done or not.

I'm suddenly craving for the mushroom crepe that Sylvia had ystd. Freaking nice. & tml's the day. Doomsday ! ):

Second Time Around,

2011-01-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

#6: Write a letter to the person you’re closest to.
Hi, Darling !

Thanks for being there for me whenever I need a pair of listening ears, whenever I'm feeling down, whenever I'm feeling vexed/confused and everything. Yknw that I'm feeling super down lately bcos of some stuff. I appreciate your presence, your worries for me. Rlly a lot. Yknw I'll nvr get bored and tired of your stories too. I♥YOU ! Please tkcare of yourself and do not get so stress over your projects.

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Work ystd was damn sian. I seriously cant stand people who maligned me w/o checking out the truth first. Met up w R last evening, after having dinner w Mum, at Northpoint to do some selection of things. Had my ice cream at Swensen's while R had his dinner there. I think we're the same kind of people, man ! We took a long time to decide whether to buy or not after deciding on smth bcos it's the last piece alrdy & we seriously hate it a lot ! Headed home at arnd 10plus. As for today, I can say it's also quite slack too. Took my nap straight after reaching home. One word : SHIOK !! Woke up to have my dinner - Mum cooked bak kut teh.

Ok, I'm done. Goodnight, people. Gna meet my girls at 4pm tml. I need more shirts !!

I'm Falling Deeper,

2011-01-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

#29: A place where you feel most comfortable. A person you feel most comfortable with.
Idk. I'm fine w it as long as it a comfortable and peaceful place. eileenY. I can only tell myself my own secrets, the things I want myself to knw and also ...

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look at the contrast on my arms ):

Look @ my super thick and heavy eyebag ! );

I like this, blurred ! :D

I seriously dk when I'll finish doing this 31challenges. Work's pretty okay so far for this wk as I've a super close colleague to help em settle some shit cases. Other than that, STRESS is the word I'll use.

It's okay. Shall hypnotize myself w " ILOVEMYJOB " ! Goodnight people (:

For All Time,

2011-01-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

#9: How do you feel about yourself?
Idk. I dont understand myself so Idk how do I feel about myself.

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I shall update my blog while waiting for a friend to reach Yishun. HAPPY NEW YEAR ! It's 2011 and a new beginning for myself starting from 0000hrs, 1/1/2011 (;

My alien lips after drinking Blu Vodka

LOVE THEM ! :D

Went for countdown w clique on the 31st. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARLING ! ILOVEYOU ALOT ! The fireworks were damn nice and awesome ! Like 3D fireworks only. I love the moment when I hugged HueyZhen while watching fireworks. Our mother & daughter hugs :D Headed to Cityhall after that to meet YY & KT at Somerset. Alley Bar only allows 20years old and above to enter the pub. Cabbed to Boat Quay but most of the pubs are either closed or there's minimum age. So bought liquor and drank at the riverside. Xmas exchange. Damn cool pls. I got YY's and he got mine. Stayed at that place for a few hours and headed home at 7plus in the morning. KO-ed immediately after reaching home and woke up at 2plus and stayed at home after that. I seriously love this bunch of crazy people.

Met up w Darling today for lunch. Talked about many things. Darling accompanied me home cus my item has arrived and no one's home. Cont'd chatting and she left for work after that. Thanks, darling ! :D

Shall prepare to go out now. I seriously need my slp but today's a no-choice night. I shall not go out after work, after tml. Tml shall be my last time. Darling, my last is for you ♥

TikTok On The Clock,

2010-12-26T12:41:00.002+08:00

#30: Who are you? When are you you? When are you not you?
I'm Eileen (LOL). I'm me when I knw that person for a long time. I'm not me when I just knw that person for awhile only. I can only open up to people whom I think I've known for quite some time. For anyone who has known me for long, they will knw that I'm always laughing and talking very loudly, at times. When I'm happy and feeling super energetic, I'll be like this. & mostly, when I'm w my clique and a few other people not from my clique.

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What a hectic schedule I have for this whole wk. I've settled some things that I need to buy alrdy. But more things not done yet ): This wk at work was quite slack because I kept asking R about the enquiries. Went out w my 2girls on Thursday after work to celebrate K's belated birthday at NEX, Lena's. I love the ambience there. Met up w K again on Friday to shop for some stuff. It's seriously super short as most of the shops closed super early on xmas eve. We shall go out again next time before your sch reopens. Sorry, K. That decision was quite last minute. I hope you don't mind (: R came to meet us and K headed home. Headed to Clarke Quay w K to meet up w H & her friend. My first time going clubbing. I suppose that it'll be my first and also my last time going for clubbing. Went for supper at Newton > Chinatown > Home at 3plus.

I spent my xmas day w family for dinner and then out w R, H & JJ for late night movie. Gulliver's Travels at Marina Square > Esplanade > MBS. Had a drink at MBS and I got a lil tipsy. My mind's cleared after having supper at MBS foodcourt. Took a cab home after that and I reached home at 4plus in the morning.

All the late night supper, slping at wee hours ... I think if I were to continue doing this, I'll definitely gain a few kilos in just one wk. Shall stop doing this alrdy. I've a busy wkend. Going out in 2hrs' time to meet up w Clique for dinner. Nice one, having headache and I had only an average of 5hrs of slp for the past 2days.

Darling, where you ? I need someone to talk to but I'm so lazy to msg also ;x hahaha ! We shall meet up anytime when you're free. ♥

No More Agony,

2010-12-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

#19: Have you ever ran away? If not, would you?
Yes, mentally. I am, now (:

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Two words to describe my job ; energy sucker ! But I met super nice people there. Not one not two but a few, esp there's this person who guides me ever since the first day of my work. Yeah, my tutor ! Apart from my work, I've a super tight schedule these 2wks. I'll only be free, like, in Jan 2011. I've totally no time to study for my BTT at all. K, time for bed. Goodnight ! (:

One Step Back,

2010-12-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

#24: What’s something you wish you could say to that someone?
Hi, how are you ? (:

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Today's the first day of my work. Uber cool pls. First time working in office environment but I forgot to bring my jacket along so I was practically shivering since 11plus till the end of my work. K, I shall tahan for 3months and then play after that before going poly. Oh, there's a girl, who's also her first day there, is an ex-andersonian too. Same batch but we couldn't recognise each other at all. Supervisor Han briefed us for almost 3hours. No work tml. K, there are two temp staffs who worked there for quite long alrdy. Before we left, one of them told me smth super funny about the OT !

Just when can I get this ?

& this ?!?!?!!!! ):

Goodbye (:

How Do I Live,

2010-12-15T18:43:00.003+08:00

#5: Write a letter to someone you’ve never met.
Dear Future Friend,

Please be nice to me bcos I trust people very easily. If possible, I would like you to be one of my best friends too and we shall go shopping together and I shall introduce you to my other best friends (:

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LOL ! I think the last sentence sounds like it's coming from a primary school kid (: Anyway, I'm blasting my songs very loudly now w the windows closed. It's playing I Never Told You. What an emo song I listened to in the past. Met up w Wife ystd at Somerset for dinner and then to FEP for her slippers (: We wore the same dress code coincidentally :D The day when Bimbo 1 met Bimbo 2. The pictures explain my previous sentence. Pictures of 1-10 are ): Shall upload the photos on Saturday. Talked quite a lot while we were on our way home. Meeting Darling tml and I'm gonna enjoy my last shopping trip before my work starts on Friday ): Shop till we drop !

You said you love me, said you'll nvr leave me. Maybe I just heard you wrong.

The Memory Keeper's Daughter,

2010-12-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

#26: A time when you hurt someone’s feelings but don’t regret it.
Sec2, March. (:

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I went for a haircut ystd. My hair is 3inches shorter now. I may cut it even shorter sooner or later. I'm one step nearer to my new beginning now :D My fringe too. I'm very happy w the length of my hair now. Went for job interview today w Sylvia. I love UOB Plaza. It's my first time there and the office is at the 56th storey. Love the high view up there. Quite a number of people are shocked that I'm not afraid of heights. Went home after that and waited for Dad to fetch me to Woodlands driving centre. Idk the real name of that centre. My BTT will be on 27th Jan if nth happens on that day (: I wna pass my first theory test !!

K, I've been reading a novel these few days. The Memory Keeper's Daughter. I havent finish reading it though. Look at the time now ! I'm tired alrdy ): Goodnight, people. But I'm not going to bed yet (:

I Hope You Dance,

2010-12-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

#4: ~~Words~~Quote you live by. Why do you like them?

“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”

I remember that I came across this quote in Sec3 after smth happened in May. I even put it in the notes so that it'll be on the screen when I flipped open my N76 phone. I like this quote is bcos it has similar meaning as, 不再乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。 I used to write this Chinese quote on all my foolscap after May '07.

I miss this phone very much

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I think I update my blog very often these few days. I seriously have nth to do other than surfing net, watching tv, reading my book. No life, right ? Going for an interview tml and that'll be my last for this year since Mum's having a few off days this month :D K, I've no idea why but I'm looking very forward to x'mas this year. I wanna go cycling !! I'm so happy that there's no chalet this year :D Normally, there'll be one every year. LOL !

P/S. 2011 will be a new start for me (;

I Feel Safe,

2010-12-12T00:35:00.005+08:00

I've come to realise that I miss you more than I love you.

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I spent the past half an hour reading message history. This time, I didnt cry, I didnt feel sad at all neither did I close the window halfway reading it (: I smiled all the way from the first to the third last conv, thinking about the past when we chatted via msn. Those times are rlly the (Y) in my life. Maybe sooner or later, I'll be able to go to the places where we once went before. Now I truly believe that one will only feel better and happier when she finally knws how to straighten her thoughts (: I enjoy being the current me a lot though I'll still miss the past at times. I'm so thankful that I've supportive family & friends by my side :D

You told me many times that if we were to be on our own, you ... I shall do the same as what you told me before. I'm going to bed soon. I get tired very easily nowadays. It's my 2nd post today though it'll be posted to 12/12/10. Goodnight, loves ! (;

& I think this post is quite sentimental. LOL ! Ironically, I got to knw the meaning of this word from you, too.

If Only You Were Here,

2010-12-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

#21: What are the 10 most significant events in your life?
1. Being born into this world on the 31st July 1992.
2. The first time I ever sprained my ankle in Sec2 when going for movie w Olivia.
3. First time going out w Z in 2007 on a day before CNY Eve cus I forgot to bring my keys out
4. Chalet '08 w clique and Z
5. Z's 16th birthday. That's the first time I ever DIY smth for someone ; very satisfied
6. My 17th birthday in sch canteen and also steamboat dinner w Z
7. Z's 17th birthday present. That's the first time I ever went shopping alone
8. My 18th birthday celebrations w different groups of people :D
9. Having Z to be w me though it's all a history alrdy ; 2.5years (Y)
10. Chalet '09 w clique and Z

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I realised that my life revolvesd arnd Z. Out of the 10 above, there are 7 which includes Z. Don't doubt me. I'm happy when I think back about my past now (: Idk if I'll regret typing this in public but all these are what I truly have in mind (:

I went for physiotherapy in the evening. My neck still hurts a lot. It's been 6days alrdy ! When will it recover ?! ): My neck still can't turn all the way to my left side. & that therapist cracked my backbone as well. HAHA ! I seriously hope that my backbone will be back to a straight one. Bought chocolate love letters when I saw biscuit shop. I seriously miss those times when there were many biscuits shops, which display the biscuits in big tins, arnd. Now, there are only a few shops left !

I rmb that I always buy this biscuits in my first primary school. 1 stick for 10cents ? & I'd always buy 20sticks. I've an itchy mouth since young. I'd keep the biscuits in my bag from end of recess till sch dismissal then to realise that the sticks had be squashed to pieces. LOL ! There's this pop pop biscuits in orange packaging. I cant find it anywhere now. Chicken flavoured. I think I mentioned it to Z & my family before. Sad ttm. Haha, this post is totally so random bcos it's all about food :D

When One Gets Tired,

2010-12-10T15:16:00.001+08:00

#28: Are you a lover or a fighter?
I can be both a lover and a fighter. I can love someone very deeply till the extent that I will always put him before me. I can be a fighter as well bcos I'm stubborn. However, a fighter is also a human being w feelings. Once she gets tired, nth else matters. Some may understand what my previous sentence means. I guess, in life, everyone's both a lover and also a fighter. Hehe, but I shall conclude that I'm a lover most of the time.

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Guess what ?! I quit my low-pay job alrdy ! 2days only. I've my reasons. Not that they didnt treat me well. But bcos I find that the job's rlly too boring and damn slack. Yeah, some may think that why am I complaining when it's an easy job. K, I shall go watch miotv now. I havent watch the new chnl8 9pm show yet. Bye (:

Wishful Thinking,

2010-12-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

#22: A picture of your group of friends

This is a picture of me & my clique

I knw there are many people in my clique. However, I can easily name out a few characters of everyone's too :D It isnt difficult bcos we knw one another very well.

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I didnt work today. Find it super not worth it. Sylvia went for nth. Had our breakfast in BK @ International Plaza. Bought newspapers so we tried our luck searching for job. Headed to Marymount for interview. I got that job. Starting work tml as an admin. I seriously hope it wont be that busy but I also duwan it to be so slack as well. K, shall go to bed soon after having papaya, a fruit which Someone dislikes a lot. Goodnight.

Trust Leads To Love,

2010-12-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

#10: Choose: trust or love
I'd choose trust. I wouldn't say I've been thru uncountable stages, but I'll definitely say I've been thru many ups and downs w mainly Someone. We thought we'll overcome all the obstacles but who knws we'd failed (: I believe this is a process of growing up. One will get heart breaks before meeting his/her true love. After this 2-year plus of incident, I've told myself that I woudnt choose love easily anymore. What I meant was, I wna concentrate on my studies and everything, excluding love, first. I believe that if someone loves him/her, s(he) will definitely wait for him/her even if it's years. This is trust. And this trust leads to love.

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I woke up at 8plus again for a job interview at 10.30am. It's freaking early and far but I guess it's a different environment as compared to the previous job which is also the same position. Trngs will be provided for the first two days thought I've worked in the same line before. Here, there are people who are either of the same age as me or older than me by 2years old. What's more, friends of ours can work together as a team as they need more people to help. I love this ! Okay, I knw I pour alot of things here so I just hope that I wont regret at all. I seriously need money to buy new clothings and also camera !! I shall slp super early tonight. Tanjong Pagar isnt somewhere near my house.

Bye !

I Was Enchanted To Meet You,

2010-12-05T16:05:00.001+08:00

I shall update my blog while waiting for the photos to be uploaded on FB. I've 3 more folders to upload. I hope my internet will not slow down anytime now.

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Took this from Darling's blog & I shall do one now.

#7: What was on your last shopping list?
It was storybook :D & I got two on Friday at Borders.

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I went out w Kimberley on Thursday. It was not a very last minute decision just that I asked her out one day before Thursday. Headed to Orchard for lunch at Din Tai Fung. Headed to Cineleisure for movie. We played pool while waiting for the time to pass :D Two noob girls playing in the middle of two groups of pro people. Watched Easy A. Headed to FEP for clothings. I bought nth there while this wifey of mine bought 2dresses there, if I didnt rmb wrongly. Headed back to Wisma for Starbucks :D Just nice during a rainy day. Borders to chit chat (camwhore) > Camwhore outside ION Orchard. I love the lightings in the big x'mas tree > Cineleisure to check for pool but fullhouse > Lucky Plaza to check pool but it's ex > Bao Today for dinner > Home. We walked a lot on that day.

Friday was my worst day ever this year compared to smth else. Come to think of it, May was that bad after all (: Self-consoling. K, I was damn pissed on that morning so I went out alone at 2plus, if not wrong. Reached Orchard station at 3.20pm. Yes, I checked to see how long will I stay at Borders. Searched for the books I want for about 3+ hours. I even read there before buying. Dexter came to find me for awhile and I left at 7.30pm to find Darling at Yishun for dinner :D Ishi Mura again. I think I'm nvr tired of that creamy sauce though it's fattening.

Woke up super early on Saturday to meet Sylvia, Constance & her sister at Hougang interchange but I was still late > Hummung (interview, mine was damn last min) > back to hougang interchange > left, took bus back to Yishun to meet up w Darling. Clarke Quay to wander arnd aimlessly, I bought sticky there :D > walked to MINT Museum of Toys (I've fulfilled one of my wishes w/o You) > Took train to Somerset, shopped at 313 Somerset. Dear Diva, pls wait for both of us to buy our things in the shop before going oos ! > Cineleisure, dined at hk cafe and shopped arnd after that > Marina Bay station to chit chat > Home.

Stayed at home for today as my legs are gna break anytime soon. There's an interview tml at 10.30am at Tanjong Pagar. No pictures for this post as my laptop is very lag now. FB has not finished uploading the photos ):

Bye.

I See Sparks Fly Whenever You Smile,

2010-12-01T15:15:00.003+08:00

It's the start of a new month and also the last month of 2010. I shall dedicate half of this post to the girl below :D This may seem random but it's been long since the last time I laughed/smiled/armchio madly in front of my laptop just by chatting on MSN w someone. It happened last night and 2nights ago. Mad funny.

Me love this photo though it's very blur. Likka couple O:

Shall find a nicer one next time :D Those memories that we mentioned are seriously irreplaceable ! & it's also bcos of all these that made me laughed and smiled like mad. We shall go out sooooooon whenever your free, darling ! ♥ Bwahaha

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Guess what ! I did 2stupid things w/i 2days. Pls say that I'm damn smart ! (: I think no one can beat me in my clumsiness. Nothing to be proud of anyway. Normally, when one wants to use their laptop w/o the battery, they'd switch on the charger right ? I didn't do that ystd. & my laptop blacked out. Then I've learnt my lesson and I switched on the charger before taking out the battery. Guess what ! My thumb laid nicely on the on button of my laptop and it restarted ! Thanks.

& online shopping is a killer. A total of $200plus of things waiting for me to buy in my cart !! ): I need a job asap.

P.S May December Be A Good One (;

I'm Haunted By Your Image,

2010-11-20T15:20:00.001+08:00

I swear I'm not emo-ing. But don't you find the 2nd one super sweet ? If I were to be her, I guess I'll find my Boyf O: Just kidding. I'm not a nobel girlf anyway. I was and nvr will be a good girlf to begin w. Maybe to my Boyf, I am. FYI, this boyf of mine is a girl :D

I think I'm pretty random to talk about ^. I thought it's a weekday today. Like what a friend told me, everyday is a weekend to me so I wont knw when's a weekday anymore. I need a job badly. I wna buy a new camera before some big events w clique / uptrend classmates / 6C'04 / beloved friends. I need a better camera compared to the current kuku S60 I'm having now. And I'm still thinking whether to get an instax mini 7 / 25 as well.


Chio right ?

There are even Mickey Mouse & Hello Kitty ! Checked the price at Sim Lim Square. $140/- How I wish money(SGD) can just drop down from the sky.

Actually they are the same thing HAHAH !

K, I'm done. Time for lunch. Bye.

One In This World,

2010-11-19T13:20:00.002+08:00

I can't sign in to my MSN, sucker !

This wk is a pretty good week. I like :D First, I went out w Vanessa, my Les partner, on Tuesday.

We went to shop for her prom stuffs. I bought two super casual tees in Bugis Street. Sylvia is cute enough to say that she didnt see me wear t-shirts before when I kept wearing t-shirts to study w them. Headed to Wisma to check out some dresses > Novena to do V's stuffs > Home at 6plus.

Then I was supposed to go down to the bball court to have bball session w the guys but it rained non stop for a few hours on Wednesday. Ruined my afternoon mood.

Met up w Darling in the evening and headed to Raffles City for her stuffs. Dined at some kuku yet high class restaurants. Wifey came after that, headed to Funan > RC camwhore > Home at 10plus :D I'm so in love w Darling's " specs ".

Lastly, I met up w Darling again :D This time was us w Olivia for dinner at Northpoint :D I think I laughed too much till my cheeks were damn pain for that evening. Chitchatted for hours and home at 10plus.

As for today, I'm staying at home. Mum's cooking lunch, 2nd time in this year :D So happy can ! & my pigass bro is still slping at this time ! Shall pack my table after lunch. & I wna go for a jog very badly ! No, it's a need.

& I can't believe that I'm watching Pokemon now O: Pikachuuuu ! :D

You All Are My Love,

2010-11-15T18:09:00.001+08:00

Guess what ? Steamboat will never be fun without those 8people arnd ! Saturday evening at Turf City was filled w laughter and joy.

Met up w Constance & Sylvia to buy Yue Sheng's belated present. We wore heels and our feet were damn pain. I havent been wearing heels for like 6months alrdy ! Headed to TPY after buying the gift. Tried a new kind of bubble tea as we couldnt find KOI. The signature chocolate dk-what is yummylicious ! We took almost 4hrs there ! {L} Played number game before leaving. HAHA ! Thanks to the 2 guys, I didnt have to eat the food as my punishment :D

Going out w my LES partner tml to see prom dress(es) for her. Like finally, I'm going out w her again. I need more new t-shirts for casual dates w clique !! ):

You Leave Me Breathless,

2010-11-12T22:27:00.001+08:00

IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER for the 2nd time.

This is my table, after shifting some books to that " uno stacko " so that I can place my laptop in the middle. I'm so proud of my messy table :D

Just so yknw, I'm a very lazy girl.

I'll start clearing the mess from next Monday onwards. There's another pile of books and files on the floor as well. DUST !

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STEAMBOAT TOMORROW ♥ ! I shall ask my girls to accompany me to see the camera before meeting the others :D

Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST COUSIN, EVON ♥ ! :D

Idk What To Put For This Title,

2010-11-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

I had 28++ tweets just ystd and today it's left w only 52tweets {referring to my twitter account} ): Idk if there's smth wrong w Twitter or what ! Not many people are affected. Whatever ! I hope that 2k plus of tweets come back soon !

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I can't wait for Friday to come then Saturday :D I smell freedom. But at the same time, I smell boredom too. Life's always so contradicting ! I need a new camera ! Canon Ixus 130, I'm coming :D Please confirm the HK trip asap too.

只是成長　要经过悲伤的
现在我相信　那最深刻的爱
不一定会陪着我们到老的

What About Now,

2010-11-05T18:55:00.002+08:00

Have you ever, at one point of time,

- felt like crying w/o any reasons
- wanted to escape from the reality and never want to be back at all
- smiled and pretended that everything's fine but the fact is ; I'm not
- felt like talking to that particular Someone but you're afraid that s/he is busy w their stuffs
- felt like you're alone in this world
- felt tired of your life and everything that's happening arnd you
- felt like telling someone your problems but you either realised that you've no one to talk to or just dont wanna be a burden to them
- felt like rewinding your life back to the past where everything is so perfect for you and then to pause at that moment and never forward it back

?

For all of the above, I have.

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My forehead is shining so brightly now. It's even brighter with the light above me. This shows how oily my forehead is. I can provide a month's supply of oil for anyone if they need to fry an egg. I don't see any link in this post at all because the first part of the post cant link to second part of it. I'm always random. I think I'm becoming more and more xl to some people and I'm loving it (; Some people will knw it since last time (Y) I like. I love it when some people can't out talk me but at the same time I dislike it when I'm speechless when it comes to debating, just like on my Fairytale-day.

Everyone says " Time flies ". But exactly how fast can it fly ? 24hours a day, how fast or how slow depends on how you're spending your day. So, tell me ... How am I going to survive through my 6months of holidays w/o you ?

Everything Starts With A Goodbye,

2010-11-03T16:46:00.001+08:00

☺

My room is so messy ! They sure know how messy I am ! :D I'm gna be bored to death soon.

There are so many movies in theatre now :D Harry potter, Chronicles of Narnia, Megamind, Social Network ! I think I'll be broke after watching them all. Muttons On The Move now. Havent been listening to this program since the start of O's.

Fairytale-Like,

2010-11-02T15:02:00.004+08:00

Yknw what's the saddest part in life ? It's to realise that the dream that your having is coming to an end yet wanting to continue it w/o having any disturbance. However, the happiest part is that when you're awake, yknw that that is smth worth remembering it in life bcos it is smth you've been yearning for (: Isn't life contradicting at times ?

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I havent been updating for more than a month. Quite a number of things happened w/i this month. Changed my blogskin back to an old skin that I've made long ago. According to photos in my camera, I've been through the last week of sch in Uptrend. I've been through James' birthday at SSC Fish&Co. I've been through the stress when I was revising my three subjects {Yes, call me a narcissist for the time being}. I've been through the 2nd time of O levels in North View Secondary. And lastly, I've been through a fairytale-liked story, to me.

I was browsing through my blog and I realised I didnt mention about the picnic w my girls at all ! Let this be a long post, if nth goes wrong. Since I havent been updating for long :D This post will be full of photos, I like :D

Yes, previous post stated about picnic at Marina Barrage. It was a rainy day on that fateful Thursday. But we still enjoyed ourselves despite the heavy rain. We're so going back there to fly kite as a clique together w the guys in December (;

I ♥ them !

That big bruise I've got

Memories (:

Then it was the last week of sch. 7months over there. Laughter more than sadness. I think all of them would agree that I'm the noisiest in class bcos I laugh during inappropriate times, I debated w teachers over a few qns just bcos I didnt understand how to solve it.

Math teacher & Aunty Kat

Science Teacher & Aunty Kat

English teacher & Aunty Kat. James' birthday

We headed to SSC Fish&Co. for James' birthday lunch.

Finally, it was the start of O levels and ystd, which is 1/11/2010, was my 2nd last paper. Fast isn't it ? & that was also when my fairytale dream started in the morning. Oh yeah, I struggled through the Physics paper during the first 20 mins. Pretty challenging and yes, I've got careless mistakes. Headed home to prepare and waited for the slowpoke Shahril to reach Yishun. Everyone was complaining about his turtle-ness. I couldnt stop crapping w him from the moment we met each other ystd. He was a joker but, Someone still beat him on that. Pro, right ? Dined at Sumo House and the laughter started. I couldnt finish my food all thanks to them for making me laugh when I was already the slowest eater amongst them.

He said smth rlly lame & that explains my expression to him

A big bully


Now you can imagine him w long hair right ? Thanks to me

& also Shahril :D

Took bus home w Teddychumz & we saw a snail ! :D

Okay, I'm finally done. I've been updating my blog and resizing photos at the same time and it took me almost 2hrs. HAHA ! I knw I'm laoya ! I ♥ MY CLIQUE !

This is the first time I'm using blogger to update my photos, except for the one which Shahril having a long hair. I shall update about my room during O levels period tomorrow or someday when I rlly have nothing to do :D

Reminisce,

2010-09-22T17:07:00.001+08:00

hello !

I have 5bruises in total on both my legs. I rmb that there's once in Sec3 when I had 8bruises on both my hands. HAHA ! scary much ! I used to think that having bruises was smth fun and funny. but not this year anymore.

I used to have a very (x infinity) close friend who liked to press on my bruises whenever we go out and whenever that friend knew that I've bruises. sadist, but we enjoyed ourselves very much. but good things always come to an end. that's Fate isn't it ? (: Fate doesn't want the destined people to meet until they've gone through the tests.

tml is picnic day ! I hope it won't rain tml since it has just rained cats and dogs. I want bright D sunny weather tomorrow :D

Matter Of Fact,

2010-09-19T15:13:00.001+08:00

Do you believe in ... ?

I believe ... That tml will be another demoralizing day for me. Gna get back Maths Paper2. Ah, yes. Demoralize me more (:

Wednesday will be the first time I'm going Marina Barrage w/o you. I'm happy, I'm happy, I'm happy. I'll be happy, I'll be happy, I'll be happy (:

Where We Are,

2010-09-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

DEMORALIZING & STRESS are the words !

careless mistakes agn ! 12marks make a big difference ! i dont want history to repeat itself during O levels ): at times I rlly wonder if I'm borned being careless. I'm always careless in everything. in studies, friendship, r/s (?) ! ):

short update. itouch isnt nice to update blog. BYE (: 39more days [:

You've Left,

2010-09-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

I wna change blogskin. but I'm such a HTML noob );
I wna update a long post. but I've no inspiration at all );

so, I shall end here. goodnight. I'm gna take a nap now (:

I'm Lost In You,

2010-08-28T22:52:00.001+08:00

Because every now and then, your name will just pop out in my mind automatically.

The Happiness Back Then,

2010-08-27T20:18:00.011+08:00

In This Life
For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

For every mountain I have climbed
And ever raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without you love I would be lost

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you
In this life, I was loved by you

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Do not ask me for other reason why I'm posting it here. I need a space for me to pour my stuff and that's my blog.

In a relationship, a couple tends to be afraid to lose each other therefore not allowing him/her to do some stuff. Yes, in our case, it's the both of us. We did the same thing(s) to each other.

I knw I shouldn't be doing this, but I cant stop myself from reading those message history. I even smiled to myself while reading those messages, just like how I'd smile in the past when reading back. But this time, the biggest full-stop has alrdy been written in our story. I thought a lot while reading the things what you told me many times when we're chatting online.Those nice sentences, those nice words, those nice names ... They're just words as though it's written on a blank paper w no authorities' signatures to recognise it ... Those unofficial words created by the both of us. Yes, tears rolled down my cheeks agn after 2wks.

Taken outside VivoCity and we both laughed after I took this photo.
Almost every places I've been to remind me of the memories we once had. Almost every songs I listened to remind me of you. The movies we've watched together and sometimes, even the food. I gathered my courage to go to Orchard, esp TheCathay. Idk when was that but I was actually very reluctant to go initially. I gathered my courage to go to Marina Square and that was our usual hangout place after school in Sec4. I gathered my courage when I needed to go to the library. I gathered my courage to go to the restaurants / cafes / foodcourts / dining places we went before. I gathered my courage to listen to the songs that I always listened w you whenever we went out. I gathered my courage to go talk about you without being affected. I gathered my courage to smile and laugh like before as though I'm not affected at all. I gathered my courage to tell everyone that I'm really fine because I knw they all care.

2 - 3 rainbows in a wk
Now, I need the courage to touch the box so that I can shift it to somewhere else. I need the courage to open up my diary so that I can continue writing w/o being affected. I need the courage to go to the flyer, that was the place we've been for almost 3 - 4 times consecutively. Yes, memories. I need the courage to tell myself that the trip into Singapore Flyer "cabin" will be better without you. I've no idea when will this come to an end but one thing I'm very sure is that I'll be standing strong agn. Time.Is.What.I.Need.Now. I wna be unaffected, just like you.

Thank you, Mr Leow. We were the first 2 to choose.
Yknw you relied and depended too much on Him when you couldn't do easy things when you're alone. Some things just can't be changed. Because you just can't kick the habits away when you've been doing so many things for so many times w the same person. Just like the movie ticket. But She wasn't You. They weren't you because I'll choose the crispy fries and we'd snatch for the last few pieces at times. There are lots of memories between the both of us. But I guess, all good things will eventually come to an end. Again, human beings do change. We may have changed in many ways ever since. But photos, memories and gifts wont change no matter what. I treasure them a lot. Thanks for the memories.

The Used To Be.
& I'm accompanied by the song above while typing this entry

Random Thoughts,

2010-08-26T23:59:00.010+08:00

Lol. I suddenly remember that I love hello kitty damn much when I was back in primary school. Collected all the toy sets from Macs. My family even bought the meals just for the hello kitty for me to display in my transparent cupboard. Then there's a period when the meals came w hello kitty keychain. I got the chef / burger one & it was stolen by some idiotic people in my primary sch & I even cried after that. How stupid ! LOL ! Mum bought me a few of hello kitty pyjamas set. I rmb one of those were hot pink & I totally love it alot. Went Thailand w family & relatives, bought a few HK pyjamas there. I rmb I've one set of red and blue each. LOL ! I've those furry slippers which can be wore at home & also normal slippers for going out. Cousin tutored me in Maths when I was P4. & knwing that I love HK things, she made HK times table for me so that I would learn it in a simpler way. Lol. But I lost those cute times table that she made ): 2 - 12. Then I've those Hello Kitty figurines and watches. When CNY was nearing, I pestered Mum that "no matter what, must buy hello kitty red packets" so that I could have one of those. {I think most kids would do this.} Haha. So now then I knw that I was once a Hello Kitty craze. Lol. I still have the Hello Kitty phone in my room now ! I saw some cute stuffs recently & I seriously hope that I wont be a HK craze anymore. Can Hello Kitty & Mickey / Minnie Mouse ever be friends ? HAHAHA !

If not wrong,

This is one of the times table background.

& this is one of my desktop wallpaper back then.

Lol. I must be too bored therefore thinking back about the past. Goodnight.

Where We Are,

2010-08-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

Here come the sleepless nights
Here come the tears I'm gonna cry
Here comes the last goodbye leaving us behind
Oh this can't be right

But When Will That Day Be,

2010-08-23T20:59:00.002+08:00

I like this lyrics a lot (: Thought the lyrics is nice. But I dont rlly like the song though O: Contradicting ? Was once a hardcore fan of Westlife. No, I still like Westlife a lot, esp Shane :D

I'll See You Again

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most
You’re gone now, gone but not forgotten
I can’t say this to your face
But I know you hear
Chorus:
I’ll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I’ll see you again
When I’m lost, when I’m missing you like crazy
I tell myself I’m so blessed
To have had you in my life, my life
Chorus
When I had the time to tell you
Never thought I’d live to see the day
When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I’ll see you again
Chorus x 2
I will see you again
I’ll see you again
I miss you like crazy
You’re gone but not forgotten
I’ll never forget you
Someday I’ll see you again
I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you, yeah
Gone but not forgotten
I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye x 3

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My oral is in just a few days' time ): How scary. 2nd chance.

Have You Ever,

2010-08-22T22:29:00.003+08:00

If life has two choices, which one will you choose ?

1. To resist what is actual and be lost in the pain,
2. To choose to let go of all illusions, delusions, dears and beliefs and, w immense sanity and freedom,

So, I have not been updating a proper one. I guess this post will be quite a long one if nth goes wrong.

A day before my legal age ;
In the day, a "surprise" celebration at Uptrend. Someone leaked the secret to me one night before. HAHA ! But still, thanks alot ! :D

You're right, I'm not in the picture :D

In the evening, a surprise celebration w half of my 6C'04 classmates at HY's house bbq pit :D Thanks alot, yo ! Love you guys lots !

The day when I turned 18 ;
Sent my hp to the service centre on this occasion. Went out w Vanessa for shopping & met beloved clique for dinner at Just Acia {or smth}. Joleen's friends joined to sang the bday song. So cute ! The fireworks were damn loud on that night. Yay, they put fireworks for me. HAHA ! That's what Vanessa said. Ya ya ! ^^ Proceeded to YOG Park aftermath for phototaking session (:

I was the centre of attraction. HAHA !
A day out w Dajie ;
Took back my phone :D Din Tai Fung for lunch. Thanks, Dajie for the treat (: Yummylicious ! Shopped arnd at town area. Bought nth, if not wrong. Headed to OC for photo taking session :D Then Gelare for tea break ^^

Study trip w girls {Part I} ;
Met up w Joleen National Library to study while waiting for Constance & Sylvia. Settled at cafe for our lunch then proceeded into the library cus of some reasons. Headed to nearest macs as there isnt any plugs. End up leh ? Others actions were faster than us. Headed to SMU to study. Left at 6plus for lunch at Iluma. & we saw fireworks while having dinner :D Photos agn after that.

Movie w Boyf
Went CWP for movie and we caught PCK movie together :D Lunched at Breeks. & no, we didnt take photos together that day ): So I shall put bbq photo :D

Sushi w my girls
School as per normal. Headed to Bishan Library to meet Joleen after lesson, to study w her for awhile. Then met the others outside Sakae Sushi for our late lunch. It's totally not worth it for me ): But it's okay ^^ I still love being w them alot!

Out w Dajie
Yes, we went out agn :D:D Went Anchorpoint for our dinner @ Secret Recipe & we saw a transexual there. We stayed there to chitchat for 2hours plus. Haha. This shows how much we had. Photos agn, and left for home before 9pm.

Day out w Darling
Darling, we met up like finally ! & yes, I understand your sentence in your blog. HAHA ! It's been long since we last met and it's very nice to go out w you till late :D Cus our day was longggg ! :D

Northpoint {Pastamania} > Bishan station > Promenade station > MBS > Holland V > Orachard station > Home !

Gym session
Yes, headed to gym w Wifey :D Okay, I ran on treadmill only BUT I still sweat. My weight increased leh ! Happy not ?! -.- I'm not ): Dinner at Northpoint & home aftermath.

I'm done ! After an hour plus :D Goodnight & sweet dreams (;

You Need An Exclamation Mark,

2010-08-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

It's funny how the people that hurt you the most are the ones who swore they never would

You're not yourself anymore. Neither am I.

Thank You,

2010-08-13T08:46:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, I've got friends asking me abt my previous post. Thanks for the concerns but just to clarify, it's got nth to do w my past (:

Till then.

You Once Told Me That You Find Them Irritating,

2010-08-12T16:28:00.002+08:00

I trusted you.

Sometimes, I rlly wish that I could forget about everything just like how you did. How could someone like you forget about everything ? GAJABOB ! {Yes, I'm using this sentence agn after so long !}

- I'll update a proper one when I'm done w all these shit feelings. Yes, agn !

You Once Told Me That Memories&Love Will Fade Eventually,

2010-08-11T20:38:00.003+08:00

If memories serve as a purpose for us to be happy when we were to look back, then can anyone tell me why am I not ?

Because 11:11 Does Not Exist,

2010-07-29T17:33:00.007+08:00

Hello, non-existent reader(s) !

“When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.”

Practical lessons last Saturday. Am I so easy to get tricked by people ? Chemistry practical teacher actually knew Adnan very well cus they could "gang up" to trick me on smth. Was talking about Blackberry and iPhone. Then both of them said there's a phone brand called "Blueberry" in M'sia -.- Met up w lovely girls after studying for Seoul Garden :D Quite last minute but I still love it alot. Lots of funny things happened and I was full after laughing for so long. Went for midnight jogging w Bro on the same night. I wanna get rid of the flabby meats hanging on my arms and tummy and thighs ): Okays, it's almost a week and my muscles are still aching. This shows that I havent been exercising for damn long ! LOL !

Sadly, I only took one photo w Joleen & not Sylvia & Constance

Met up w Kimberley wife two evenings ago. I was and AM still very happy to meet up w her after so damn long ! Dined at 18chefs. Headed to the "playground" on the highest level of Northpoint to cam-whore and also the ladies. HAHA ! It's been so long since I last cam-whored in a restroom O: We even took 80over photos w/i an hour. There's an uber cute lil girl who accidentally took photo w us. Damn cute ttm ! Headed back home at 10plus. Oh yes, SUNDAY ! :D

Met up w Pamela dajie the next afternoon at her school to study together w her friend. I felt very weird and she knws why ! HAHA ! I felt a sense of accomplishment bcos I did 4topics of revision despite it's just 2hours plus of study session. MONDAYYYY !

I hate the fact that my cyber-shot phone is spoilt ): Met up w Constance & Sylvia last week after school at Khatib mac's to study. Yes, it's raining/drizzling that day and I didnt protect Him from the rain. The screen had lines and soon it went white then black screen while I was msging friends. What's worst was I dropped my beloved jacket, iTouch & ez link card onto the floor w mud. Tell me, who can be more unlucky than me ? ): Then I couldnt retrieve my contacts from Him to Mum's spare phone. Now, I dislike SE phones. But the irony thing is the phone I'm using now is SE ! I want a new phone asap. I rmb one of my phones died on me at almost the same time as now in 2007. Coincidence or what ?

Tests are going on this wk. Maths & Sciences were over for me. & I can conclude that I wont do well this time round either. Maths will go downhill for sure. I hate bearings & sketching of graphs ! Having English test tml. Idk if it's compre/compo/letter writing/all of that 3. HAHA !

BBQ w 6C'04 people tml as class gathering ! No one knws if it'll be a successful one until tml. Saturday w my lovely clique for shopping/dinner. Bro's always so busy until we had to postpone the "dinner" as a family ):

Can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky
are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now.

It's time to be independent w/o you (':

Better In Time,

2010-07-18T15:56:00.008+08:00

Good afternoon.

I love today's weather. So cooling. Rained in the morning and stopped at arnd 1pm. & now it's gna rain anytime agn (:

So, my June & first half of July was quite fine. Caught Toy Story 3 w classmates on the last day of June. I wna watch Despicable Me ! Went for Kbox on the same day, in the evening, w my girls. Ah, yes ! I rmb my right eye was swollen on that day too. Haha!

Then there's once when Aunty Kate gave us cherries to eat while we were working and the guys starting playing w the juice.

Dating, yes no ?
Then I finally met Pamela to "study". Haha. I knw we'll be able to study on next Wednesday. Dinner at a cafe. Nice talking to you, Dajie :D

Played pool w classmates at OCC was damn hilarious. Won each other. Sad thing is that 24th July / Aug will be the last day that OCC will have a pool place. I wna go cycling w them ): Went Grandma's house last night and I rlly love the feeling a lot ! (: Ah, tests are coming very soon ! I've no motivation to study yet ): Sad or sad.

& It's been a long time since I posted such a long post with so many pictures. Yes, I miss my life. I swear I'm gna live life to the fullest (:

I always think of you when I'm down and I'll somehow cheer up a bit bcos I knw you dont want anyone of us to be upset of anything. I cried agn last night on the way to Grandma's house. I rlly miss you a lot, Grandpa.

I'm gna stand up and be a strong girl once agn (: I dont wna fall and cry so easily anymore. I've been crying for so many times for 2months and my eyesights are getting from bad to worse day by day. Idw to cry anymore when I mention your name. Bcos I knw, we alrdy have had those memories etched inside our hearts and we'll nvr forget about that. Btw, today's the 18th.

We Will Never Be,

2010-07-10T17:04:00.006+08:00

I miss you, Grandpa. Where are you ? ):

Saw this on my twitter via twittascope

Sometimes your feelings get in the way of keeping up with your regular activities. Don't give up even if you are hurting inside. Just remember how tender and raw your emotions are now so be careful about exposing them. Give yourself permission to keep quiet if that makes you feel safe. Wait until you're ready to share your heart.

& I have no idea why I like Elvin Ng soooooo much ! :D

~~Bcos I knw it will be healed~~ ~~eventually~~.

2010-06-30T16:58:00.002+08:00

I GIVE UP !

We Can Never Have Yesterday,

2010-06-27T17:24:00.006+08:00

I want to have a sense of accomplishment by 10pm tonight !

Went to meet the guys after school, on Friday, together w WJ at Yishun. Headed to Safra but god knws why we had to wait for 2hrs for one bowling alley. So, we headed to OCC. & we all wondered why WJ suggested walking there. He, himself, knws the reason why he said, the walking distance is the same as walking from Safra to Yishun Station. LOL !

Bowling was boring cus my score was the lowest amongst all ! 30 - 40 points diff from my previous session ): Headed down to pool after one game cus we were damn bored ! POOL WAS DAMN FUN ! Heh, surprisingly, I won 4 except J ! -.- CL was funny enough to get the black ball to go into the pocket first. LOL ! Played for 3hrs and rushed home at 7pm. Fun day w them :D

Yeah, lowest !
Had to work on Saturday. Met up w S for lunch and met C & her friend and headed to Bottle Tree Park for the family day. I swear I hated this duty alot ! LOL ! Bored ttm ! What's more was that I was sitting right in front of that stupid speaker and it's blasting into my ears all the time when the Emcee was speaking !! Thought of how to write my compo while I was stoning at my station. But somehow, I got stucked at one paragraph -.- Went over to S & C 's station to play w the kids. Love the angmoh kid. Damn cool, pls ! Chitchatted, packed and left at 8plus. Had late dinner w S at khatib. Headed home at 10plus aftermath.

~~Never believe them just bcos of their sweet talks. You've changed my mindset ever since that day (: Everything seems to have changed. Even you & I.~~

Being The Hardest,

2010-06-24T18:48:00.005+08:00

~~it's funny how one photo can change my mood ):< I'm still J seeing .... up till now.~~

English day tml. I'm finally done w one compo ! I love random posts. Shall slp early tonight ! Thanks to Bro, I woke up at 9am today -.- Meeting besties for pool tomorrow after sch. I bet tml will be the last time playing since sch gna reopen soon for poly students. No more meet ups ): BYE !

Forever No More,

2010-06-23T14:53:00.003+08:00

Ystd was great ! (Y) School was fine. Funny things happened. Adnan lent me his MP3 to update my iTouch :D Thankyou ! Met up w HY at Compass Point after my lunch w classmates. Headed to Hougang for pool. I won him tyco-ly. HAHA ! KL came halfway and played w him as well. Havent seen him for like 6years ! That's damn long, man ! Left Kpool @ 4plus. Headed to Hougang Mall for HY's meal while KL taught me maths. Funny things happened agn. They left after Sylvia Constance & KT came. Dinner w the girls @ Pizza Hut aftermath. The bill is nice ! Shopped arnd after that. Night market is (L) ! Went home aftermath.

'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.

As I read those msgs we exchanged in the past (in Mum's hp & mine), the common qns kept flashing through my mind. WHY ? [: Everything's over.There's nothing much to say, but Goodbye.