Even Brighter Than The Moon,

Timbre w friends last evening to celebrate Wei Xiong's big day ! :D Had a blast one !

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Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
I've alrdy given that person a second change (: And we're back to close friends once again. 'Nuff said (:

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That's to make it up to ystd's post since I didnt update. Here's today's (: Dont tell me about the number bcos I skipped one question on purpose. #23 is kinda sensitive and personal (:

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Z. Anything related to this type of questions will all be linked to Z (: Thanks for the mmrs, Dear. I hope you do well for your A levels and start studying now instead of playing the whole day ! (: Pls do rmb what you once told me in the past. Your dream. I rlly do hope that you still rmb about them.

I told a few of my friends about what we did in the past. It's so hard to forget about them. I wont forget but I'll just safekeep everything at a corner in my heart ! (: I rlly hope that you'll find a girl who's much better than I am, in future ! (: God bless you in everything and whatever you do, ♥

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Why Do I Care So Much For,

I'm absent from school again for today. Not diarrhea this time round. But it's gastric problem. Vomited gastric juice thrice the moment I woke up. Absent from school for 2days in a wk. I hope I can cope w studies sia !

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Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Dear Z,
I knw it's not your fault at all. But bcos I put in more than 100% of love and effort into this r/s, that's why I thought that you're. 2.5years of r/s and also 2yrs of liking you/each other secretly isnt easy to forget. I forgave you bcos I knw that there's nth to be angry about actually. This is just part and parcel of life, isnt it ? (: Take it as an experience learnt. Life has to go on. Move on. Everyone has moved on. I shall too (:

That's it ! (:

When Funny Is Equivalent To Sadness,

I doubt I'll be switching on my laptop since new term started today. So, I shall just schedule my post for the sake of the 30days challenge (;

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Actually I didnt contact any of my childhood friend. But I rmb there are a few girls who we were my "best friends" in kindergarten. We'd play I don't friend you/her/him. I recently saw two of my kindergarten friends in Yishun. Ah, they're so tall now. I couldnt recognise one of them until my mum told me it's her.

Idk what to update for this as well.

My 5th or 6th birthday

I'm the only one w watch. LOL !

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The final breakdown,

An entry before I switch off my laptop and clear my desk and room for a new study table and chair to be arrived on Friday ! :D

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Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Dear Grandpa,

You've be gone for almost 3years. Time passes in the blink of an eye. I knw it wasnt nice to have walked away in that way, in a hospice. But I guess, like what the adults said, you didnt want us to see you leave. You left in the morning after the adults left your ward. It was nvr nice to accept the fact that you're gone and I had to go to school the 2nd day after you left. All I thought was to end school asap and go to your funeral asap !

I rmb when I was still a kid, I was alrdy the do-not-want-to-listen-to-you type. But I dont rmb you nagging at or scolding me at all. I love it when you carry me high up into the air. I rmb when we were still a kid, x {I'm not gna name cousins' names here :D } was kinda scared of you and I was the one who was always glued to you wherever you go even at home. And when x was scared, I showed x that you're not a monster and that there's nth to be afraid of. HAHAH! Those were the very innocent times. Before your house got renovated, I love it when we, the kids then, climbed up to the highest "step" on your gate and you've to carry us down one by one. Despite that, we climbed up again and you've to repeat what you did before. Nonetheless, you told us you enjoyed it. We too ! There's this picnic that I rmb very vividly at ECP w family and relatives. I rode of a 3 or 4 wheels bicycle. Grandpa was behind me all the time. And as I've mentioned in the first sentence, I didnt listen to him. And I rode on an unbalanced pathway and fell down. Heh, it was Grandpa who picked me up. Thankyou.

HAHAHAH ! There's this time when I was at grandparents' house bcos I didnt want to go daycare centre. Dad sent me there and it was lunchtime. Grandpa had to feed me from kitchen to living room bcos I didnt want to eat at all. Kay, I was a very naughty girl in the past. It must be hard on you. Then it was Bro's gameboy or toy. Dad or Mum was angry and threw smth into the rubbish chute. You went down w Bro to the chute just to find back the thing. And from what I rmb, you'd buy toys for Bro when parents didnt want to buy for him. In the past, we always have overnight stay at your house w a few cousins. You'll slp in the living room for us kids to slp in the room w Grandma. But if not wrong, we went to the living room to slp as well as we wanted to have that experience of slping in the living room. LOL ! Then you had to be very careful so as not to step onto us. I love it when you pushed me high up into the sky on the swings. Yes, good memories of the swings started here. But asdfghjkl ! They just had to remove the swings and the climbing things downstairs to build a multi-storey carpark !! UGH !

It was 2007 Nov when we realised that your leg was swollen. We advised you to visit the doctor. You did, together w Aunt. It was then that the doctor said you're diagnosed w cancer. asdfghjkl ! Seriously, why you ?! ): We found out on the last day of your funeral that you were supposed to retire and enjoy life just 2days after you went to visit the doctor ! It was terrible seeing you trying to talk when you'd no strength at all.

Now, we'll have to go to the place where "you" are at to talk to you (: I love the time when Grandma asked me to try the red thingy and it was a success for me being a first timer. LOL ! They always say Grandpa doted on me and Bro the most. I believe so (:

The final breakdown. You're the best grandpa ever, Grandpa Y.
I love you, Grandpa Y.

I'm still trying to find more photos.

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Back To The Past,

This post may contain things that you wouldnt want to read. So if you wna read, please do not talk about it after reading. Thanks (:


Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush


Dear Z,
Thanks for the memories you've given me from 2008 to May 2010. There are so many memories to be mentioned here. I thank you for giving in to me for umpteen times and also thanks for tolerating my nonsense in the past. But in fact, we started way back in 2005 - 2007. I guess you alrdy knew my temper way before we got together because I gave you a bit of attitude just a few hours before movie marathon. Heh, I guess I'm the only one who rmb all these lil details.


Like what I've mentioned in my previous post that I didnt knw the meaning of love until a year when Someone was added into my world, again. Yes, we were together in 2005 but I guess back then, I didnt treasure what's mine. Then it started again in 2006 and we started going out in 2007. Many things happened in between 07 and 08. But I thank God for letting such a nice guy into my world in 2008 just a few days after V.day despite having to be separated in the end. Those were the times.


Thanks for going to all the places that I wanted to go and the movies that I wanted to watch. Yes, all along I knw that you dont like to watch romance and kiddish movies but you accommodated me just bcos I wanted to watch all those genres. Thanks for the lovely birthday present back in 2008. I love the way you phrase everything and the MM puzzle that you took one whole night to fix just for my bday, which wasnt meant to lemme knw. You got angry after someone let the cat out of the bag. But it's alr bcos only that I'd knw that you actually put heart into it and that's the first present I ever received from ex(boyf). And also the lovely letter which surprised me after you told me there's smth that you kept in the puzzle. Then it was '08 chalet w the clique. I guess you were surprised by the DIY album I made for you bcos you told me you almost teared after reading it. That's the most satisfying thing I've ever done in my life. And I sang w you the London Choco Roll while walking back to chalet w my sexaye and off pitched voice bcos I had sore throat and my voice was partially gone. SEAL-liked voice, that's what you said. Then it was Valentine's Day. I made you a card and I gave you in advance bcos I thought we wouldnt meet on the actual day. I didnt knw you actually surprised me by dropping a letter into my bag and told me when I reached home. I didnt knw your actions were that fast. Then it was my 17th birthday. Thanks for the lovely necklace and funny love letter. Thanks for putting on the necklace for me and also the birthday treat. I knw that was the first time you ever went shopping alone for a girl's present. Not even your Mum's. On the day when O levels results was released, you consoled me upon knwing my results. You kept telling me that my C.Humans and Chinese were good (': Then it's '09 clique chalet again. Thanks because we rlly had some time alone. Then it was your birthday again. Time flies. This time was a simple present from me that I was damn upset w myself though you kept assuring me that the picture I had chosen was the one you liked the most.


Then you entered JC near my house. You met me after your school for a few times and when your workload got heavier, we stopped meeting after that and only on Saturdays. Thanks for accompanying me on Sats despite you were tired and had lots of work to do / revise. Thanks for texting me everyday be it good or bad. Thanks for talking about our future w me whenever I was bored and whenever we're random. Thanks for imagining our lives together down the road. Even though we had lots of ups and downs, but we managed to go through it for at least 2years. I guess that was enough. I knw that our loves were real to each other because of all the conv we had in the past. People often say that we'll only learn how to treasure smth special after it's gone. Yes, I understand this after May '10. I guess I relied on you too much in the past 2-3years. 3yrs bcos you helped me even before we were together. This reminds me of the day when we spent 4hours at Siloso beach alone months before we got together. HAHAH ! Even though we didnt talk much but I guess it's the companion that matters.

Thanks for encouraging me on the day when I had my last paper last year. Thanks for all the jokes conv you played along on that day all the way till 9pm. Yes, I rmbed. That was like a fairytale story that I thought it wouldnt happen. Thanks for accompanying me via SMS for 3days straight when I told you about my maternal Grandpa earlier this Feb.


I still dont rlly dare to step into the places we've gone before. I shall, therefore, make a wishlist to step into
- Singapore Flyer,
- the river near SF,
- Snow City
- Museums (though I've alrdy been to one w CX Darling)
- Grand Cathay (though I've been there just ystd for the ladies)
- Henderson Waves
- Marina Barrage (Yes, I've been there once w clique for picnic after that. I gathered my courage to do so !)
- Chalets (there's one class chalet coming and I'm still contemplating though I've alrdy paid)
- Esplanade
- Sentosa

and many more. Some songs I listen to still do remind me of you. I knw I'm weird. It's been one year plus since it happened. Yes, we gotta move on but how am I supposed to do it when ... And I saw this tweet that a friend of mine retweeted this morning.

Once you have been hurt, you are scared to get attached again. You have a fear that every person is going to break your heart.

I guess everything that happens to have a starting will eventually have an ending too.There's no fairytale stories existing in this real world. Perhaps there are. But that's only 1/100 (?).  It's kinda hard for me to imagine me and someone else being together. There isnt any sad things mentioned here bcos I wna fill this blog w only happiness (: That's the way life should be. And this is just one-quarter of the things happened in the past. Hehee, everything shall be kept in me ♥

Smth that you drew using my previous camera on V.day '09

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Love You Long Time,

Hello, :D

Going for a haircut ltr w Mum. My fringe is irritating to my eyes. Shall cut it short. Random paragraph.


Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Bro,
As I've mentioned in the previous post, you're rlly good to your sister unlike some other brothers who will nvr give in to their younger ones. I'm rlly lucky to have you as my elder brother !

I rmb that I was always the one who bullied you and then complaint to Dad that it's the other way round when I was still a kid. HAHAH, those were the times. And I often got you into trouble. I knw you may have hated me in the past and Dad for being biased. But luckily you were sensible enough, like what Mum said, you didnt grow up and turn into a rebellious teenager / adult cus of the past. Yes, there might be arguments between you and I when we were still in primary school. The times when we argued and fought in Sengkang house. But I happy happy times were more than the times we fought and argued.

You'd always buy food back from dk-where back for us to eat. Thanks for all the birthday presents I've gotten from you every year when I didnt buy you any at all ;x Yeah, this year was the first time if not wrong and the shirt was oversized. And thanks for not complaining about it though I knw it doesnt fit. But that's alrdy the smallest leh ! I rmb that there's once when I said the pink torto in Mini Toons was nice and you bought that for my birthday present. Thanks Bro. & I bought you the tomato for x'mas present but end up I took it to hug most of the time and returned it to you after that. Although we still argue at times, but the duration wouldnt last as long as when we were young. The cold war would end in just a few minutes and we're back to talking terms again :D Thanks for being my shield most of the time when Mum was gna beat me for doing smth wrong when I was still a clueless primary school kid. And in Sec 1 when I was reprimanded for some stupid things. Thanks for helping me to negotiate w Mum when she confiscated my phone in Sec 2. Thanks for every lil things you've helped me.

I rmb that when I was still studying in Chongfu Pri, I told you to lookout for me after you're dismissed from school bcos I wanted to say goodbye to you before you board the childcare bus and when there's once when you were looking out for me but didnt see me, I got so upset till I cried. And there's once when I alighted from the bus outside my kindergarten, and a friend chased after me but I didnt like it. You helped me by telling her off. Yes, you're rlly like a guardian angel to me. I guess you've helped me many times but I dont think that's it bcos till now I still need your help for so many things ^^

As the years passed, we got rlly closer. Friends often told me this, you and your brothers are like very close / can see that your brother dotes on you a lot. Yeaps, we are and he is :D And I'm rlly proud to have him as my brother ! If next life rlly exists, I wna be your lil sister again. I wna be in this family, being parents' child again too ! <;

I've many photos for this post :D:D

I find this funny. Bro is always full of weird ideas up till today.

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I didnt knw that I had bald spot when I was so small. HAHAH 

He looks like an ang moh ):

Yessss, I love the bday cake and I wasnt born yet ):

This is so cute !! ♥

I just realised that I'm always one head shorter than Bro since young. Kay, short ! Hahah.

“Siblings are the unbreakable bond between God's greatest gift to parents.”

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