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have I REALLY gotten over it. or am i deceiving myself and not wanting others to be worried? i dont even knw the answer! god, save me! i really need an answer. i knw you may have gotten over it.

i hate the past, seriously! but there's no reason for me to hate you. there's no hate when there's love! sometimes, i'm wondering... why some fking things do happen on me. why cant life be smooth for me? maybe, if it's smooth, it isnt life anymore ? 6 more days to school reopens. and yes, we cant possibly avoid each other forever ? maybe, facing the reality is the best. but still, i guess, i need more time to do so. one and a half month isnt enough, so dont say one month! yes, i told myself not to think about it. but idk why that sometimes w/o knwing, i WILL think of past. ; of the movies, the outings, the mac & everything. fking hell! i penned down every lil thing and told myself that never ever look back. HAHA! it's easy to say, but hard to do so! i guess things do happen w a reason. but sometimes, w/o any reason too. f!

conclusion : i need more time! LOL!
yesyes, please say that i'm naggy or whatever. i hate this thing! fking arsehole! :D

hwrk hwrk! my lips are so dry. f!

i love pizza! ;D

i'm very fine now :D finally, i knw how to manage some things well w the encouragement from people. ((: thank you! 我终于放下了 ; 不再想这么多了. HAHAHAHA!

someone told me this : no point thinking about it since it's alrdy fixed, and cant possibly change the fact anymore. the more you think about it, the more sad you are. WAHAHAHA. true enough! :D my mood was better during recess after thinking through what that person told me. yes, and eating one stick of pocky helps too. HAHA!

when i was about to reach home just now, i took and my phone and realised someone edited my "My Notes". LOL. someone edited smth like , "i am no longer who i am". okays la. i did not type out everything. haha. i roughly knw who you are okays! LOL! but i'm still the same. YEO XUN RU EILEEN! :D no change. i wont change just bcos of some _ things. (:

one sentence using small font. HAHA! for the first time, idontloveyounomore. (:

nothing can describe. EFFING hell!

I HATE IT! I HATE THIS EFFING FEELING.

i deleted the previous post. i dont knw why. i just had an urge to delete everything, even my blog!

sorry then. i really have nothing to say alrdy. i do hope you read this for the last time, one more time will do. or maybe wont alrdy. cus, somehow, i dont knw how and what to reply you. yes, i'm typing it openly. i dont want to make it black anymore.

you msged. i read. i cried. i dont understand. tears just came down uncontrollably. even when i didnt bother to think about it. i dont think anyone can understand how i'm feeling now. forget it.

thanks for letting me know, anyway. two routes. one yours ; one mine. that's it!

i'm really outta words. nothing can descibe it.

sometimes i really dont understand. why?! that three words appeared in the msg. i really really really dont understand it. i woke up happily and things turned out to be like this. i think the only way now is _ and _ .? i'll try to. gimme some time, pls. i swear i'll forget about you and concentrate on my studies fully! and i'm sure, you've alrdy done it! sorry! perhaps, it's alrdy so wrong right from the start. what's done cannot be undone? this sentence is TOTALLY SO WRONG! maybe for some things, yes. one more week of school and i can seriously make full use of june hols to avoid thinking about things which happened since term1. hopefully... but still, thanks for some of those nice memories you've given me in the past few months. though i dont think they meant much to you?, but still , i appriciate it alot. thank you!

i shall hide it now. everything's gna be fine, soon! (: