nothing can describe. EFFING hell!

I HATE IT! I HATE THIS EFFING FEELING.

i deleted the previous post. i dont knw why. i just had an urge to delete everything, even my blog!

sorry then. i really have nothing to say alrdy. i do hope you read this for the last time, one more time will do. or maybe wont alrdy. cus, somehow, i dont knw how and what to reply you. yes, i'm typing it openly. i dont want to make it black anymore.

you msged. i read. i cried. i dont understand. tears just came down uncontrollably. even when i didnt bother to think about it. i dont think anyone can understand how i'm feeling now. forget it.

thanks for letting me know, anyway. two routes. one yours ; one mine. that's it!

i'm really outta words. nothing can descibe it.

sometimes i really dont understand. why?! that three words appeared in the msg. i really really really dont understand it. i woke up happily and things turned out to be like this. i think the only way now is _ and _ .? i'll try to. gimme some time, pls. i swear i'll forget about you and concentrate on my studies fully! and i'm sure, you've alrdy done it! sorry! perhaps, it's alrdy so wrong right from the start. what's done cannot be undone? this sentence is TOTALLY SO WRONG! maybe for some things, yes. one more week of school and i can seriously make full use of june hols to avoid thinking about things which happened since term1. hopefully... but still, thanks for some of those nice memories you've given me in the past few months. though i dont think they meant much to you?, but still , i appriciate it alot. thank you!

i shall hide it now. everything's gna be fine, soon! (: