I'm Lost In You,

Because every now and then, your name will just pop out in my mind automatically.

The Happiness Back Then,

In This Life
For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

For every mountain I have climbed
And ever raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without you love I would be lost

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you
In this life, I was loved by you

-

Do not ask me for other reason why I'm posting it here. I need a space for me to pour my stuff and that's my blog.




In a relationship, a couple tends to be afraid to lose each other therefore not allowing him/her to do some stuff. Yes, in our case, it's the both of us. We did the same thing(s) to each other.

I knw I shouldn't be doing this, but I cant stop myself from reading those message history. I even smiled to myself while reading those messages, just like how I'd smile in the past when reading back. But this time, the biggest full-stop has alrdy been written in our story. I thought a lot while reading the things what you told me many times when we're chatting online.Those nice sentences, those nice words, those nice names ... They're just words as though it's written on a blank paper w no authorities' signatures to recognise it ... Those unofficial words created by the both of us. Yes, tears rolled down my cheeks agn after 2wks.


  Taken outside VivoCity and we both laughed after I took this photo.  
Almost every places I've been to remind me of the memories we once had. Almost every songs I listened to remind me of you. The movies we've watched together and sometimes, even the food. I gathered my courage to go to Orchard, esp TheCathay. Idk when was that but I was actually very reluctant to go initially. I gathered my courage to go to Marina Square and that was our usual hangout place after school in Sec4. I gathered my courage when I needed to go to the library. I gathered my courage to go to the restaurants / cafes / foodcourts / dining places we went before. I gathered my courage to listen to the songs that I always listened w you whenever we went out. I gathered my courage to go talk about you without being affected. I gathered my courage to smile and laugh like before as though I'm not affected at all. I gathered my courage to tell everyone that I'm really fine because I knw they all care.


  2 - 3 rainbows in a wk  
Now, I need the courage to touch the box so that I can shift it to somewhere else. I need the courage to open up my diary so that I can continue writing w/o being affected. I need the courage to go to the flyer, that was the place we've been for almost 3 - 4 times consecutively. Yes, memories. I need the courage to tell myself that the trip into Singapore Flyer "cabin" will be better without you. I've no idea when will this come to an end but one thing I'm very sure is that I'll be standing strong agn. Time.Is.What.I.Need.Now. I wna be unaffected, just like you.


  Thank you, Mr Leow. We were the first 2 to choose.  
Yknw you relied and depended too much on Him when you couldn't do easy things when you're alone. Some things just can't be changed. Because you just can't kick the habits away when you've been doing so many things for so many times w the same person.  Just like the movie ticket. But She wasn't You. They weren't you because I'll choose the crispy fries and we'd snatch for the last few pieces at times. There are lots of memories between the both of us. But I guess, all good things will eventually come to an end. Again, human beings do change. We may have changed in many ways ever since. But photos, memories and gifts wont change no matter what. I treasure them a lot. Thanks for the memories.


  The Used To Be.  
& I'm accompanied by the song above while typing this entry

Random Thoughts,

Lol. I suddenly remember that I love hello kitty damn much when I was back in primary school. Collected all the toy sets from Macs. My family even bought the meals just for the hello kitty for me to display in my transparent cupboard. Then there's a period when the meals came w hello kitty keychain. I got the chef / burger one & it was stolen by some idiotic people in my primary sch & I even cried after that. How stupid ! LOL ! Mum bought me a few of hello kitty pyjamas set. I rmb one of those were hot pink & I totally love it alot. Went Thailand w family & relatives, bought a few HK pyjamas there. I rmb I've one set of red and blue each. LOL ! I've those furry slippers which can be wore at home & also normal slippers for going out. Cousin tutored me in Maths when I was P4. & knwing that I love HK things, she made HK times table for me so that I would learn it in a simpler way. Lol. But I lost those cute times table that she made ): 2 - 12. Then I've those Hello Kitty figurines and watches. When CNY was nearing, I pestered Mum that "no matter what, must buy hello kitty red packets" so that I could have one of those. {I think most kids would do this.} Haha. So now then I knw that I was once a Hello Kitty craze. Lol. I still have the Hello Kitty phone in my room now ! I saw some cute stuffs recently & I seriously hope that I wont be a HK craze anymore. Can Hello Kitty & Mickey / Minnie Mouse ever be friends ? HAHAHA !


If not wrong,

  This is one of the times table background.


& this is one of my desktop wallpaper back then.

Lol. I must be too bored therefore thinking back about the past. Goodnight.

Where We Are,

Here come the sleepless nights
Here come the tears I'm gonna cry
Here comes the last goodbye leaving us behind
Oh this can't be right

Have You Ever,

If life has two choices, which one will you choose ?

1. To resist what is actual and be lost in the pain,
2. To choose to let go of all illusions, delusions, dears and beliefs and, w immense sanity and freedom,

So, I have not been updating a proper one. I guess this post will be quite a long one if nth goes wrong.


A day before my legal age ;
In the day, a "surprise" celebration at Uptrend. Someone leaked the secret to me one night before. HAHA ! But still, thanks alot ! :D 





  You're right, I'm not in the picture :D

In the evening, a surprise celebration w half of my 6C'04 classmates at HY's house bbq pit :D Thanks alot, yo ! Love you guys lots !



The day when I turned 18 ;
Sent my hp to the service centre on this occasion. Went out w Vanessa for shopping & met beloved clique for dinner at Just Acia {or smth}. Joleen's friends joined to sang the bday song. So cute ! The fireworks were damn loud on that night. Yay, they put fireworks for me. HAHA ! That's what Vanessa said. Ya ya ! ^^ Proceeded to YOG Park aftermath for phototaking session (:











I was the centre of attraction. HAHA !  
A day out w Dajie ;
Took back my phone :D Din Tai Fung for lunch. Thanks, Dajie for the treat (: Yummylicious ! Shopped arnd at town area. Bought nth, if not wrong. Headed to OC for photo taking session :D Then Gelare for tea break ^^





Study trip w girls {Part I} ;
Met up w Joleen National Library to study while waiting for Constance & Sylvia. Settled at cafe for our lunch then proceeded into the library cus of some reasons. Headed to nearest macs as there isnt any plugs. End up leh ? Others actions were faster than us. Headed to SMU to study. Left at 6plus for lunch at Iluma. & we saw fireworks while having dinner :D Photos agn after that. 







Movie w Boyf
Went CWP for movie and we caught PCK movie together :D Lunched at Breeks. & no, we didnt take photos together that day ): So I shall put bbq photo :D





Sushi w my girls
School as per normal. Headed to Bishan Library to meet Joleen after lesson, to study w her for awhile. Then met the others outside Sakae Sushi for our late lunch. It's totally not worth it for me ): But it's okay ^^ I still love being w them alot!




Out w Dajie
Yes, we went out agn :D:D Went Anchorpoint for our dinner @ Secret Recipe & we saw a transexual there. We stayed there to chitchat for 2hours plus. Haha. This shows how much we had. Photos agn, and left for home before 9pm.




Day out w Darling
Darling, we met up like finally ! & yes, I understand your sentence in your blog. HAHA ! It's been long since we last met and it's very nice to go out w you till late :D Cus our day was longggg ! :D

Northpoint {Pastamania} > Bishan station > Promenade station > MBS > Holland V > Orachard station > Home !




Gym session
Yes, headed to gym w Wifey :D Okay, I ran on treadmill only BUT I still sweat. My weight increased leh ! Happy not ?! -.- I'm not ): Dinner at Northpoint & home aftermath.

I'm done ! After an hour plus :D Goodnight & sweet dreams (;

You Need An Exclamation Mark,

It's funny how the people that hurt you the most are the ones who swore they never would

You're not yourself anymore. Neither am I.

You Once Told Me That You Find Them Irritating,

I trusted you.


  

Sometimes, I rlly wish that I could forget about everything just like how you did. How could someone like you forget about everything ? GAJABOB ! {Yes, I'm using this sentence agn after so long !}

- I'll update a proper one when I'm done w all these shit feelings. Yes, agn !

You Once Told Me That Memories&Love Will Fade Eventually,

If memories serve as a purpose for us to be happy when we were to look back,  then can anyone tell me why am I not ?